NSFWMy Rude Awakening Ch. 19
By Stellargirl
Ch.19 - Never break a swear
Nakaluhod pa rin ng paupo while completely hazed from the kantot I received from Dan. My face was still coated by tamod like a warpaint spreading across my chin and chest area. I wasn’t bothered by my ayos. Everything about it felt so damn right, fulfilled with a sense of accomplishment.
Tulala pa rin ako while trying to digest what happened when I saw Dan returned to the room ng nagmamadali and letting me know agad na kakalabas lang daw nila Christian heading to the nearby 7-11 and 24/7 hawker to grab some food and ice. Kaya pala sya kinatok earlier para isama. The only people left in the apartment were the two guys who saw me earlier.
Dan was basically providing me with an option kung gusto ko na daw bang umuwi or wait na lang till the next morning kapag nakaalis na silang lahat. If I decided to leave, he argued na hindi naman daw ako personally kilala nila Eric (and the other visitor guy). Besides, both of them saw me earlier na so it’s completely up to me daw if comfortable ako to be seen again. I badly wanted to go pero at the same time nahihiya ako... lalo na na parang sobrang obvious pa na may nangyari sa amin ni Dan.
For me personally, I’d rather be safe na lang talaga. I was leaning towards staying overnight when suddenly we heard a door shut noise followed by complete silence coming from the living area. Sumilip sa labas si Dan sabay balik sa room and he confirmed na empty na yung living room while nasa kitchen daw yung dalawa habang nagyoyosi. House rules daw nila na bawal mag smoke outside the kitchen area.
Dan mouthed the word “Ano??” like he’s pushing me to make a decision. Panic mode agad ako trying to decide what to do… but for some reason I told myself na “Bahala na…” and went ahead for the escape.
I grabbed my clothes in a hurry and wore them ng mabilisan. I haven’t finished buttoning my top when I saw Dan urging me to move in a hurry. My face was still glistening from his cum at sa panic ko, I tried wiping them using my hands… and yuck, mas lalo tuloy naging kadiri yung nangyari.
I grabbed my bag and carried my own heels and sneaked along the corridor like a ninja while trying not to make any ingay. I stopped for a second just before entering the living room and then took a deep breath before tuluyang tumakbo papunta sa main door. Dan and I were staring at each other while he helped to unlock the door. Pagkabukas ng door, Lumabas din si Dan and he’s pointing at the same exit stair where I went earlier that night.
“Mag stairs ka then sa parking ka dumaan hanggang dulo saka ka lumabas papuntang street…dun ka maghintay ng taxi...” bulong nya while pointing me where to go to avoid any posibility na makasalubong ko yung grupo nila Christian.
Sobra yung stress ko as I went straight to the stairs as fast as I could na para akong kabit na pinapatakas ng lalaking may asawa. Pagkababa ko just before exiting the stairs, I stopped for a minute to fix myself and dug inside my bag when I realized na nakalimutan ko pala sa toilet nila Dan yung make-up pouch ko. My hands were trembling in horror while holding the phone and trying to call Dan so that he could bring my pouch to me, but he wasn’t answering my call.
Napaupo na lang ako sa steps feeling so defeated sa nangyari. My face and hands felt so sticky at pati yung damit ko may marks ng tamod all over… I was literally a mess and feeling so humiliated by how I was rushed out of the apartment like some booty call whore. I can only blame myself for what happened.
Prior to that week I was literally at the highest point of my single dating life. We all have that at some point in our life naman diba? So, I don't wanna sound too braggy again or feeling nag ma-maganda... but at that time talaga, guys from all sorts of life are drawn to me for some reason. Everyone thinks I’m being too snobby and maarte sa mga lalaki and I have every right to be… why not diba? I’m young, attractive and feeling ko I haven’t reached my peak yet.
Now I’m at my lowest of my low... sitting at the stairs with my bare feet, blouse open and messy face covered with sticky cum. At that point, I stopped caring anymore at gusto ko na lang makabalik sa hotel ko agad. I found nothing in my bag to clean myself up so I wiped those leftover cum in my face using my braso and forearms so now pati arms ko eh feeling malagkit . I know kadiri and ultimate low point talaga.
I walked palabas and followed Dan’s instructions and luckily I was able to get a cab agad. I noticed a few glances from the cab driver pa pero I felt so deflated na parang wala na akong pakialam kung anong iniisip nya sa akin. To be honest, it felt liberating pa nga for not caring anymore at gusto ko pa ngang direchahin si manong uncle na “Yup I know what you’re thinking...Hindi yan pawis manong… Tamod sya…”
I was too beat up to the point na naka tulala lang ako sa window ng taxi buong ride pauwi. I was happy that I got away without anyone noticing and sobrang looking forward ako to get some well-earned sleep.
At the hotel, I took off my clothes at napahiga agad ako sa kama sa pagod. That sticky cum all over me has all dried up like it has already absorbed into my skin permanently. That’s when I started to recall lahat lahat ng nangyari that night. Oh God, did I just break so many of my life rules for a guy I just met a few days ago?
My rational thinking was all back When things were back to normal. I started to question everything that I’ve done na parang kinakausap ko yung sarili ko in a group chat:
J: I couldn’t believe na ako pa talaga pumunta sa place ng lalaki just to get laid.
J: Fuck, did I just do a strip show to tease a guy I barely knew?
J: Oh my God, sya ang first blowjob ko!!! His cock in my mouth... I milked his cock with my mouth... The horror…
J: Did I just go to a stranger guy’s place and offer my virgin mouth to him while my ignorant ex-boyfriend was just outside the room and has no idea what's happening?
I remember how it took almost 2 years for Christian just to kiss me sa lips ng matagal. Ganun talaga ako ka strict sa kanya. He waited for years and earned everything just so he can smack and feel my “treasured” lips. I remember kung gaano sya kaingat sa akin during our entire relationship and how he kisses me so gently... yung feel na feel with our eyes closed and all those romantic shit you see in movies.
“Oh mg God, sorry talaga Christian…” I told myself while reminiscing kung paano ko lang pinakantot yung bibig ko sa iba. Dan didn’t need to be patient nor earn anything from me. He walked into my life like he knows what my mouth and my lips were really meant for... doomed for cocksucking. He knew I was a natural-born cocksucker even before I knew it for myself.
Just like that, I began touching myself na naman na parang hindi pa ako nakuntento sa mga nangyari sa amin ni Dan earlier. Every time talaga na naiisip ko how I betrayed everyone’s goody two-shoes perception about me… grabe effect nya sa akin. There’s something about being deceitful that really turns me on in a snap. It's hella weird that I'm hoping to get caught and witness the disappointment in their faces….. and yet ayoko din malaman nila so I can continue having the thrill of being a slut behind their backs. What’s wrong with me?
I was trying to bring myself to a quick “O” before falling asleep when I heard my phone ringing and it was Christian calling me sa Viber. Hinayaan ko lang sya and went back to what I was doing but then he kept on calling me again and again. Impeccable timing talaga...
“Uy..bakit?...” tanong ko na mejo naiinis pero hindi ko pinapahalata na nagfifinger ako.
“Hello J? Saan ka? Puntahan kita!...” aggressive na tanong nya agad
“Why?...madaling araw na…” reply ko ignoring his urgency.
“Basta… puntahan kita ngayon sige na!...” sabi nya na parang pagalit pa
“Wag na… diba bukas naman magkikita tayo?....” sagot ko na naiirita na din
“Kahit video call na lang… sige na…” pakiusap pa nya as he quickly turned on his video.
I have no clothes on except my underwear so I wrapped my body with kumot and reached out to my left side to open the lampshade next to my bed. I accepted his video request with mataray at badtrip na simangot… completely forgetting na I still have those dried up cum all over my face.
“Saan ka??...” nakaka-inis na tanong pa nya.
“Anong saan?...natutulog kaya ako...” sagot ko while pushing the phone away after noticing how messy I looked, and yet he doesn’t seem to care
“Sa hotel ka ba? Pakita naman…” mejo mahinahon na nyang tanong as I noticed na he’s somewhere outdoor.
While panning my phone around the room, I couldn’t help but wonder why all of a sudden he’s desperate to know where I am. I started to wonder na baka may nakakita sa akin paglabas ko kanina ng unit nila Dan… or nakita nya ako while walking outside the parking lot…or Dan told them it was me etc… so many things are running through my mind.
“Bakit ba kasi?...” tanong ko sa kanya.
“Hehe wala okay na. na confuse lang ako… pero okay na...” reply nya na nagpa-paamo bigla “Sorry... sorry talaga sa abala…”
“Wait bakit? Confuse saan? Tell me… hindi ka tatawag ng ganitong oras if hindi yan importante…” sabi ko na litong lito na din
“Wala yun… basta okay na...” reply pa nya
“May pinakita lang na video si Dan, parang may hawig sayo ng konti… sensya na nataranta lang ako… imposible naman talagang ikaw yun…” dagdag pa nya
I was stunned pero hindi ko pinahalata. Twice na sya nangyari yet nakalimutan ko nanaman na may video ulit kami. The old me would probably overreact and confront Dan right away after I specifically asked him not to share the video - pucha! what the hell was he thinking!
The old me would feel regret or sisisihin ko sarili ko for the things I should’ve done; like I should have known better or dapat talaga hindi na ako pumayag, or at least dapat talaga dinelete ko na agad, etcetera etcetera
That was the old me.
I was calm yet surprisingly thrilled that Christian saw the video. Mejo clueless lang ako kung bakit hindi nya ako namukhaan since at the very end of the video clearly showed it was me. It wasn’t like my face was partially covered or the angle didn’t catch it, none of that shit. Alam kong ako yun and it was me in pure ecstasy. Dan and I watched it together so i’m sure of it. Pero it looks like Christian didn’t see that part since he got his ‘assurances’ nga na it wasn’t me.
“Anong video? Anong ginagawa?...” painosente ko pang tanong na parang I wanted to hear it directly from him pa... I wanted him to describe to me kung paano ako gumiling sa video.
“Wala naman haha… scandalish video hehe kaya alam kong imposible na ikaw yun..” he replied to my disappointment.
“May babae kasi na nasa kwarto nya ngayon… alam kong hindi ikaw yun pero mejo nataranta lang ako ng konti… ewan basta hehe… kaya chineck ko lang at naabala pa kita….” dagdag pa nya
“Ganun? And you thought it was me? Na I’m capable to do something like that?…” Tanong ko sabay lapit ng phone ko pa closer to my face.
The quality of the video call saved him from learning the truth because a part of me wanted him to notice the dried-up tamod coating my face. He can see kung gaano kagulo yung hair ko but he’s probably assuming na magulo sya dahil he woke me up from sleep.
He has no idea na proud pa akong pinapakita ko sa kanya kung paano ako binaboy ni Dan. I felt a flush of libog flow through me and I started playing with my pussy once again while yung other hand ko is holding the phone aiming at my face.
“Alam ko namang hindi ikaw yun… at imposibleng ikaw yun…” depensa pa nya pero kanina lang eh sobrang natataranta sya.
"Nanjan pa ba yung girl?…" painosente ko pang tanong.
"Oo nasa kwarto pa nya… ayaw ipakilala sa amin ni Dan eh… anyway okay na… ayoko ng pagusapan si Dan haha… " sagot nya
"So, kaya ka tumawag para i-check kung ako yung girl?... Wow…" nagkukunwari pa akong disappointed sa kanya to cover up the truth.
"Siguro… sorry na. For so many reasons, alam ko namang hindi ikaw yun. Humirit lang si Brian na parang ikaw daw yung babae sa video… nakatalikod kasi… kaya parang nag alala din ako… kahit 100% akong sure na hindi ikaw yun…" explaination nya.
"Si Dan puro yabang lang pero sobrang masikreto kaya tingin ko prosti yung babae kasi kahit picture eh wala syang mapakita… palabas pa nya kanina relative daw ng wife nya...” dagdag pa nya. I didn’t say anything. I just smiled at him like I was trying to showcase my lips pa right after giving someone else a masterful cocksucking for the very first time.
Wala syang idea na ako yung tinutukoy nyang "pokpok" na sinasabi nyang pumatol kay Dan. Sorry na lang but he's clueless talaga. He still sees me as the same conservative ex-girlfriend that he had, so he couldn't believe it was my ass and hips yung taas babang kamakabayo sa titi ng ka-tropa nya.
Christian should know better as he had seen me dance a thousand times before. He has seen how agile I am as he watches me try out for our school's cheerleading dance team. He was there for me when I failed to make the final cut and encouraged me to be better… and I got better. Squatting on top of a guy and gracefully bouncing my whole hips to a huge cock pala was all I’ve been preparing for. How do I look now, Christian? Ginalingan ko para sayo.
All these thoughts has put me on the verge of cumming kaagad at napapikit nalang ako sa sarap.
“Sige go back to sleep na alam kong inaantok ka na…" he said as he thought I was falling asleep.
"Sorry ulit ginising pa kita. Inumaga na kami pero hapon pa naman tayo magkikita diba?...” reply nya at naiba na topic namin. We then talked for a while and agreed na sya maghahatid sa akin sa airport for my flight later that day..
Our call ended and soon enough I phoned Dan right away to confront him about his betrayal. I was waiting for him to answer the call when I realized that maybe telling him may not be such a good idea. Pagkasagot nya ng phone, I decided not to mention anything about the video. I crafted a plan to lure him into meeting me so I can ambush his phone and delete the video myself before having ideas of making any copies.
“Oh gising ka pa? Hotel ka na?...” casual nyang tanong after answering the call.
“Yeah okay na…" reply ko
"Hey, if you like... we can see each other tom before ako umalis?... Nakalimutan ko yung pouch ko jan sa toilet, kung okay lang idaan mo sana here sa hotel before checking out…” sabi ko while getting to the point agad.
“Narealize ko lang din that we never had a proper goodbyes sa pagmamadali…” lambing ko pa kunwari para ma-convince ko sya na makipagkita.
“Haha oo nga eh, nanlalagkit ka pa sa pagmamadali...” biro pa nya.
“Haha yeah and I left my pouch pa jan sayo… I found nothing to clean myself up... so umuwi ako with your tamod all over me....” I said while teasing him yet totoo namang nangyari
“******* haha.… Everytime kasi na nakikita ko yang masungit mong mukha… parang ang sarap mo laging paliguan ng tamod haha...” biro pa nya
“Pero baka hindi kita ma-meet bukas ng umaga. Bahala na kung magising ako. Message na lang kita…” sabi nya.
I tried my best to make kulit about meeting him again to the point na I was begging him na pero hindi sya talaga makapangako sa akin. Our convo felt like closure, we were bidding farewells like we had already seen each other for the last time. He wishes na Singapore pa rin ang piliin ko for my next destination but he doubts of continuing to see me again kasi parating na rin daw yung family nya.
He claimed that he knew how to get through me despite him being out of my league. I never believed him when he yabang about how he saw the ‘hidden libog’ in my eyes daw during our first meeting. Can guys really tell? He thought of 'scoring' me as a priority after finding out na ako pala yung ‘infamous’ ex-girlfriend ni Christian. He gambled on himself and went all out and aggressive. Para sa kanya, he considered it a win na daw If he can speak ng bastos freely in front of me.
Him being rude and jerk was something that he never thought he would be able to express to a girl. He hopes that I don’t get offended pa daw, but when he calls me his ‘pokpok’ and ‘parausan’, that’s what he truly sees me and nothing more. It’s not like he doesn’t find me attractive or nag fe-feeling gwapo sya… he told me straight na sex lang talaga ang gusto nya sa akin.
He told me about the past rejections he endured in the past from girls like me na according to him eh ‘maarte at snobby’... kaya daw minsan masyadong personal mga hirit nya sa akin. He doesn’t hate me as J, In fact I was nothing but kind to him naman daw. He just utterly hates the type of girl that I represent, kaya sobrang gratifying daw to treat me like I was nothing.
After our first hook-up, he admitted to ghosting me after realizing the potential impact of it to his friends and family. He’s concerned daw that I might get clingy or do something ‘loco’ to ruin his marriage and his relationship with his friends given my inexperience with the setup. Him being ‘obnoxious’ was his way daw to push me away and make it appear like hooking up with him was a mistake. He’s committed not to bother me anymore until nalaman nya na gusto akong pormahan ni Jeff.
“So nag selos ka?..” tanong ko pa habang natatawa.
“Haha hindi naman… gusto ko lang ipagmayabang sa sarili ko na nakantot na kita bago sya…” reply nya.
“And you did…” sabi ko sa kanya. “Dont worry Dan… I’ll never ever forget this whole trip, this whole experience...I owe it sayo..”
“Besides ikaw ang first blowjob ko… Y'know kung gaano sya ka big deal sya sa akin… Nobody would ever take that away from you… not Christian or even future boyfriends…” I said truthfully.
“Oo nga eh... biro mo hindi mo nagawa kay Christian tapos ako ginawa ko lang parausan bibig mo kanina…” Pagmamayabang pa nya. “Tapos inamin mo pa kanina na pakantot bibig mo… ******* talaga…”
Our cheesy convo took a drastic turn bigla and switched my libog back again. Dan wasn’t just blurting out dirty words for the sake na makapambastos lang... his candor delivery and the way he describes my disgraceful acts always finds its way to get through me. Damn! Ganun na ba ako ka-easy? na parang konting hirit nya ng mga ganun, nakukuha nya na agad yung libog ko.
“Sayo lang, Dan…” mahinang sabi ko while pleasuring myself
“Sayo lang alin?...” kunwari pang hindi nya nagets yung sinabi ko
“Papakantot ko lagi bibig ko sayo Dan…” I proudly declared while my orgasm starting to build up.
“Mangako ka ulit…” utos pa nya
I hesitated for a bit but then the chance of seeing him again was slim so mejo confident ako swearing and doing sweeping declarations. I get aroused din when he empowers me so what I said next almost brought me close to climax agad;
“I swear na papakantot ko lagi bibig ko sayo, dan…” I vowed with all my heart.
“Isusubo mo titi ko kahit saan at kahit kailan ko gusto… Tama?...” reply nya bidding for more affirmation.
“Yes I will…” I uttered while feeling myself getting really close.
“So kahit may boyfriend o asawa ka na, isusubo mo pa din titi ko kapag ginusto ko?….” dagdag pa nya
“They can all watch habang kinakantot mo mouth ko sa harap nila…” I cummed right after saying those words.
“Haha magdasal ka na hindi tayo magkita habang kasama mo si Christian… yayariin ko bibig mo sa harap nya…” pabiro nyang sabi
We talked for a while and finally said our goodbyes. But in order to get the right closure that we both agreed to, that scandal video of us has to be deleted talaga. I wanted to move on without leaving any evidence kahit pa somehow I trust him.
I was about to bring it up when our conversation ended abruptly. I waited for him to call me back but then he didn't. Regardless, I felt at peace na rin after that talk. Walang hung-ups or bitterness and regret. I was more than ready to get back to my previous life.
While browsing my phone to sleep, I checked those messages from Jeff that I ignored earlier and he’s being makulit talaga, proposing to join me for breakfast at my hotel nalang rather than go out for brunch. That way daw less hassle daw sa akin and no more excuse to turn him down.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I really do like Jeff. I’m attracted to him and he’s easy to get along with. I'm a sucker pa naman for guys making an effort and initiative. I’m just disheartened by his timing lang talaga. But now that Dan and I just closed our chapter and I have zero interest in getting back together with Christian, so going out with Jeff seems appropriate. I texted him back and set our breakfast meet-up at 8am. Nagulat ako na gising pa pala sya at nag reply sa akin ng *“*Yes! it's a date
See you...”
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I slept and woke up the next day around 7am-ish. I got everything ready including my luggage for easy check out later. I decided not to be overly dressed since it's a breakfast meet up so I just wore a simple baby pink sando and jeans. I decided to go with the casual nerdy look by wearing thick-framed low-prescription glasses to compensate for not wearing any makeup since I left them sa room ni Dan.
I met Jeff from the hotel lobby then we proceed to the breakfast hall. He immediately noticed the glasses and told me na bagay daw sya sa akin and that I look even cuter having it on. Enjoy naman kami while eating. We talked almost everything about each other and he always made me feel like I’m his 'ultimate crush'. Bolero lang...
I can't help but like this guy agad. There's magic in the air na parang sobrang rare mangyari on a first date. It doesn't help pa na he's gwapo and jacked and I couldn't help myself being amazed by him. He shared almost everything he knows about me and yet I'm embarrassed na hindi ko sya maalala. Kind of a feel-good romantic love story talaga if we really ended up together.
About an hour had passed when suddenly I heard my phone ringing and it was Dan. I canceled the call agad pero nag message din sya after;
“Nandito ako sa lobby, dala ko yung pouch mo… Iiwan ko nalang ba sa reception?...”
Panic mode agad ako. My heart flutters and my face starts to blush. I didn’t really care about my make-up pouch talaga as I can easily buy them again. All I cared about was deleting our video so we can finally move on na talaga. Jeff noticed that something was wrong so I told him an excuse that the message was from my mom and pretended that I forgot to get something she asked me to buy for her.
“Tara samahan kita, may time pa naman…” offer pa nya sa akin.
“Uhm.. can you wait here? saglit lang? I’ll check my bags lang sa room kasi alam ko nabili ko na sya…” palusot ko pa
“You sure?, samahan kita… tulungan na kita maghanap…” offer nya ulit habang patayo na sya
*“*No… no, ok lang... ako nalang… 5 minutes lang ako… besides babalik pa ako for some cake…” palusot ko ulit.
“Alright.. Take your time, ok lang ako dito…” sabi ni Jeff
I texted Dan agad to wait for me while I rushed myself to the lobby. Luckily nasa upper floor yung dining hall so at least these two idiots are in separate locations. I saw Dan agad from a distance holding a paper cup coffee and my pouch. Dan saw me as well na pababa ng stairs at lumapit sya agad para i-abot sa akin yung pouch pero I told him straight na all I wanted is for him to delete our video sa harapan ko mismo.
I told him that I knew that he shared our video after the whole video call fiasco I had with Christian last night. He apologized and said that he cropped the end part of the video (the part where it showed my face) with the intention of showing it to Brian lang. ‘Nagalit’ daw sya when Brian shared it sa buong tropa.
“Kaya pala gustong lumusob sa kwarto ko nung una… namukhaan ka nya pala hahaha…” biro pa ni Dan.
I urged Dan to delete the video so that he can leave na pero parang nakakahalata sya kung bakit ko sya pinapaalis agad. That left me no choice but to admit that I'm in the middle of a breakfast date with Jeff at the dining hall.
He didn't say anything at first pero bigla nalang nya akong hinawakan sa kamay sabay hila sa akin papunta sa lift lobby. I kept on insisting that he needs to go but then tumingin lang sya sa akin sabay sabing; “You swore diba? Nangako ka!....”
I was stunned and literally frozen to where I was standing.
“No no… no no no…nooo… not right now...” I said in a panic as I realized what he wanted me to do “We moved on, Jeff’s waiting… please naman…”
“You swore, J...” He said while smiling as he stepped inside the lift and waiting for me to come in.
By Stellargirl
Ch.19 - Never break a swear
Nakaluhod pa rin ng paupo while completely hazed from the kantot I received from Dan. My face was still coated by tamod like a warpaint spreading across my chin and chest area. I wasn’t bothered by my ayos. Everything about it felt so damn right, fulfilled with a sense of accomplishment.
Tulala pa rin ako while trying to digest what happened when I saw Dan returned to the room ng nagmamadali and letting me know agad na kakalabas lang daw nila Christian heading to the nearby 7-11 and 24/7 hawker to grab some food and ice. Kaya pala sya kinatok earlier para isama. The only people left in the apartment were the two guys who saw me earlier.
Dan was basically providing me with an option kung gusto ko na daw bang umuwi or wait na lang till the next morning kapag nakaalis na silang lahat. If I decided to leave, he argued na hindi naman daw ako personally kilala nila Eric (and the other visitor guy). Besides, both of them saw me earlier na so it’s completely up to me daw if comfortable ako to be seen again. I badly wanted to go pero at the same time nahihiya ako... lalo na na parang sobrang obvious pa na may nangyari sa amin ni Dan.
For me personally, I’d rather be safe na lang talaga. I was leaning towards staying overnight when suddenly we heard a door shut noise followed by complete silence coming from the living area. Sumilip sa labas si Dan sabay balik sa room and he confirmed na empty na yung living room while nasa kitchen daw yung dalawa habang nagyoyosi. House rules daw nila na bawal mag smoke outside the kitchen area.
Dan mouthed the word “Ano??” like he’s pushing me to make a decision. Panic mode agad ako trying to decide what to do… but for some reason I told myself na “Bahala na…” and went ahead for the escape.
I grabbed my clothes in a hurry and wore them ng mabilisan. I haven’t finished buttoning my top when I saw Dan urging me to move in a hurry. My face was still glistening from his cum at sa panic ko, I tried wiping them using my hands… and yuck, mas lalo tuloy naging kadiri yung nangyari.
I grabbed my bag and carried my own heels and sneaked along the corridor like a ninja while trying not to make any ingay. I stopped for a second just before entering the living room and then took a deep breath before tuluyang tumakbo papunta sa main door. Dan and I were staring at each other while he helped to unlock the door. Pagkabukas ng door, Lumabas din si Dan and he’s pointing at the same exit stair where I went earlier that night.
“Mag stairs ka then sa parking ka dumaan hanggang dulo saka ka lumabas papuntang street…dun ka maghintay ng taxi...” bulong nya while pointing me where to go to avoid any posibility na makasalubong ko yung grupo nila Christian.
Sobra yung stress ko as I went straight to the stairs as fast as I could na para akong kabit na pinapatakas ng lalaking may asawa. Pagkababa ko just before exiting the stairs, I stopped for a minute to fix myself and dug inside my bag when I realized na nakalimutan ko pala sa toilet nila Dan yung make-up pouch ko. My hands were trembling in horror while holding the phone and trying to call Dan so that he could bring my pouch to me, but he wasn’t answering my call.
Napaupo na lang ako sa steps feeling so defeated sa nangyari. My face and hands felt so sticky at pati yung damit ko may marks ng tamod all over… I was literally a mess and feeling so humiliated by how I was rushed out of the apartment like some booty call whore. I can only blame myself for what happened.
Prior to that week I was literally at the highest point of my single dating life. We all have that at some point in our life naman diba? So, I don't wanna sound too braggy again or feeling nag ma-maganda... but at that time talaga, guys from all sorts of life are drawn to me for some reason. Everyone thinks I’m being too snobby and maarte sa mga lalaki and I have every right to be… why not diba? I’m young, attractive and feeling ko I haven’t reached my peak yet.
Now I’m at my lowest of my low... sitting at the stairs with my bare feet, blouse open and messy face covered with sticky cum. At that point, I stopped caring anymore at gusto ko na lang makabalik sa hotel ko agad. I found nothing in my bag to clean myself up so I wiped those leftover cum in my face using my braso and forearms so now pati arms ko eh feeling malagkit . I know kadiri and ultimate low point talaga.
I walked palabas and followed Dan’s instructions and luckily I was able to get a cab agad. I noticed a few glances from the cab driver pa pero I felt so deflated na parang wala na akong pakialam kung anong iniisip nya sa akin. To be honest, it felt liberating pa nga for not caring anymore at gusto ko pa ngang direchahin si manong uncle na “Yup I know what you’re thinking...Hindi yan pawis manong… Tamod sya…”
I was too beat up to the point na naka tulala lang ako sa window ng taxi buong ride pauwi. I was happy that I got away without anyone noticing and sobrang looking forward ako to get some well-earned sleep.
At the hotel, I took off my clothes at napahiga agad ako sa kama sa pagod. That sticky cum all over me has all dried up like it has already absorbed into my skin permanently. That’s when I started to recall lahat lahat ng nangyari that night. Oh God, did I just break so many of my life rules for a guy I just met a few days ago?
My rational thinking was all back When things were back to normal. I started to question everything that I’ve done na parang kinakausap ko yung sarili ko in a group chat:
J: I couldn’t believe na ako pa talaga pumunta sa place ng lalaki just to get laid.
J: Fuck, did I just do a strip show to tease a guy I barely knew?
J: Oh my God, sya ang first blowjob ko!!! His cock in my mouth... I milked his cock with my mouth... The horror…
J: Did I just go to a stranger guy’s place and offer my virgin mouth to him while my ignorant ex-boyfriend was just outside the room and has no idea what's happening?
I remember how it took almost 2 years for Christian just to kiss me sa lips ng matagal. Ganun talaga ako ka strict sa kanya. He waited for years and earned everything just so he can smack and feel my “treasured” lips. I remember kung gaano sya kaingat sa akin during our entire relationship and how he kisses me so gently... yung feel na feel with our eyes closed and all those romantic shit you see in movies.
“Oh mg God, sorry talaga Christian…” I told myself while reminiscing kung paano ko lang pinakantot yung bibig ko sa iba. Dan didn’t need to be patient nor earn anything from me. He walked into my life like he knows what my mouth and my lips were really meant for... doomed for cocksucking. He knew I was a natural-born cocksucker even before I knew it for myself.
Just like that, I began touching myself na naman na parang hindi pa ako nakuntento sa mga nangyari sa amin ni Dan earlier. Every time talaga na naiisip ko how I betrayed everyone’s goody two-shoes perception about me… grabe effect nya sa akin. There’s something about being deceitful that really turns me on in a snap. It's hella weird that I'm hoping to get caught and witness the disappointment in their faces….. and yet ayoko din malaman nila so I can continue having the thrill of being a slut behind their backs. What’s wrong with me?
I was trying to bring myself to a quick “O” before falling asleep when I heard my phone ringing and it was Christian calling me sa Viber. Hinayaan ko lang sya and went back to what I was doing but then he kept on calling me again and again. Impeccable timing talaga...
“Uy..bakit?...” tanong ko na mejo naiinis pero hindi ko pinapahalata na nagfifinger ako.
“Hello J? Saan ka? Puntahan kita!...” aggressive na tanong nya agad
“Why?...madaling araw na…” reply ko ignoring his urgency.
“Basta… puntahan kita ngayon sige na!...” sabi nya na parang pagalit pa
“Wag na… diba bukas naman magkikita tayo?....” sagot ko na naiirita na din
“Kahit video call na lang… sige na…” pakiusap pa nya as he quickly turned on his video.
I have no clothes on except my underwear so I wrapped my body with kumot and reached out to my left side to open the lampshade next to my bed. I accepted his video request with mataray at badtrip na simangot… completely forgetting na I still have those dried up cum all over my face.
“Saan ka??...” nakaka-inis na tanong pa nya.
“Anong saan?...natutulog kaya ako...” sagot ko while pushing the phone away after noticing how messy I looked, and yet he doesn’t seem to care
“Sa hotel ka ba? Pakita naman…” mejo mahinahon na nyang tanong as I noticed na he’s somewhere outdoor.
While panning my phone around the room, I couldn’t help but wonder why all of a sudden he’s desperate to know where I am. I started to wonder na baka may nakakita sa akin paglabas ko kanina ng unit nila Dan… or nakita nya ako while walking outside the parking lot…or Dan told them it was me etc… so many things are running through my mind.
“Bakit ba kasi?...” tanong ko sa kanya.
“Hehe wala okay na. na confuse lang ako… pero okay na...” reply nya na nagpa-paamo bigla “Sorry... sorry talaga sa abala…”
“Wait bakit? Confuse saan? Tell me… hindi ka tatawag ng ganitong oras if hindi yan importante…” sabi ko na litong lito na din
“Wala yun… basta okay na...” reply pa nya
“May pinakita lang na video si Dan, parang may hawig sayo ng konti… sensya na nataranta lang ako… imposible naman talagang ikaw yun…” dagdag pa nya
I was stunned pero hindi ko pinahalata. Twice na sya nangyari yet nakalimutan ko nanaman na may video ulit kami. The old me would probably overreact and confront Dan right away after I specifically asked him not to share the video - pucha! what the hell was he thinking!
The old me would feel regret or sisisihin ko sarili ko for the things I should’ve done; like I should have known better or dapat talaga hindi na ako pumayag, or at least dapat talaga dinelete ko na agad, etcetera etcetera
That was the old me.
I was calm yet surprisingly thrilled that Christian saw the video. Mejo clueless lang ako kung bakit hindi nya ako namukhaan since at the very end of the video clearly showed it was me. It wasn’t like my face was partially covered or the angle didn’t catch it, none of that shit. Alam kong ako yun and it was me in pure ecstasy. Dan and I watched it together so i’m sure of it. Pero it looks like Christian didn’t see that part since he got his ‘assurances’ nga na it wasn’t me.
“Anong video? Anong ginagawa?...” painosente ko pang tanong na parang I wanted to hear it directly from him pa... I wanted him to describe to me kung paano ako gumiling sa video.
“Wala naman haha… scandalish video hehe kaya alam kong imposible na ikaw yun..” he replied to my disappointment.
“May babae kasi na nasa kwarto nya ngayon… alam kong hindi ikaw yun pero mejo nataranta lang ako ng konti… ewan basta hehe… kaya chineck ko lang at naabala pa kita….” dagdag pa nya
“Ganun? And you thought it was me? Na I’m capable to do something like that?…” Tanong ko sabay lapit ng phone ko pa closer to my face.
The quality of the video call saved him from learning the truth because a part of me wanted him to notice the dried-up tamod coating my face. He can see kung gaano kagulo yung hair ko but he’s probably assuming na magulo sya dahil he woke me up from sleep.
He has no idea na proud pa akong pinapakita ko sa kanya kung paano ako binaboy ni Dan. I felt a flush of libog flow through me and I started playing with my pussy once again while yung other hand ko is holding the phone aiming at my face.
“Alam ko namang hindi ikaw yun… at imposibleng ikaw yun…” depensa pa nya pero kanina lang eh sobrang natataranta sya.
"Nanjan pa ba yung girl?…" painosente ko pang tanong.
"Oo nasa kwarto pa nya… ayaw ipakilala sa amin ni Dan eh… anyway okay na… ayoko ng pagusapan si Dan haha… " sagot nya
"So, kaya ka tumawag para i-check kung ako yung girl?... Wow…" nagkukunwari pa akong disappointed sa kanya to cover up the truth.
"Siguro… sorry na. For so many reasons, alam ko namang hindi ikaw yun. Humirit lang si Brian na parang ikaw daw yung babae sa video… nakatalikod kasi… kaya parang nag alala din ako… kahit 100% akong sure na hindi ikaw yun…" explaination nya.
"Si Dan puro yabang lang pero sobrang masikreto kaya tingin ko prosti yung babae kasi kahit picture eh wala syang mapakita… palabas pa nya kanina relative daw ng wife nya...” dagdag pa nya. I didn’t say anything. I just smiled at him like I was trying to showcase my lips pa right after giving someone else a masterful cocksucking for the very first time.
Wala syang idea na ako yung tinutukoy nyang "pokpok" na sinasabi nyang pumatol kay Dan. Sorry na lang but he's clueless talaga. He still sees me as the same conservative ex-girlfriend that he had, so he couldn't believe it was my ass and hips yung taas babang kamakabayo sa titi ng ka-tropa nya.
Christian should know better as he had seen me dance a thousand times before. He has seen how agile I am as he watches me try out for our school's cheerleading dance team. He was there for me when I failed to make the final cut and encouraged me to be better… and I got better. Squatting on top of a guy and gracefully bouncing my whole hips to a huge cock pala was all I’ve been preparing for. How do I look now, Christian? Ginalingan ko para sayo.
All these thoughts has put me on the verge of cumming kaagad at napapikit nalang ako sa sarap.
“Sige go back to sleep na alam kong inaantok ka na…" he said as he thought I was falling asleep.
"Sorry ulit ginising pa kita. Inumaga na kami pero hapon pa naman tayo magkikita diba?...” reply nya at naiba na topic namin. We then talked for a while and agreed na sya maghahatid sa akin sa airport for my flight later that day..
Our call ended and soon enough I phoned Dan right away to confront him about his betrayal. I was waiting for him to answer the call when I realized that maybe telling him may not be such a good idea. Pagkasagot nya ng phone, I decided not to mention anything about the video. I crafted a plan to lure him into meeting me so I can ambush his phone and delete the video myself before having ideas of making any copies.
“Oh gising ka pa? Hotel ka na?...” casual nyang tanong after answering the call.
“Yeah okay na…" reply ko
"Hey, if you like... we can see each other tom before ako umalis?... Nakalimutan ko yung pouch ko jan sa toilet, kung okay lang idaan mo sana here sa hotel before checking out…” sabi ko while getting to the point agad.
“Narealize ko lang din that we never had a proper goodbyes sa pagmamadali…” lambing ko pa kunwari para ma-convince ko sya na makipagkita.
“Haha oo nga eh, nanlalagkit ka pa sa pagmamadali...” biro pa nya.
“Haha yeah and I left my pouch pa jan sayo… I found nothing to clean myself up... so umuwi ako with your tamod all over me....” I said while teasing him yet totoo namang nangyari
“******* haha.… Everytime kasi na nakikita ko yang masungit mong mukha… parang ang sarap mo laging paliguan ng tamod haha...” biro pa nya
“Pero baka hindi kita ma-meet bukas ng umaga. Bahala na kung magising ako. Message na lang kita…” sabi nya.
I tried my best to make kulit about meeting him again to the point na I was begging him na pero hindi sya talaga makapangako sa akin. Our convo felt like closure, we were bidding farewells like we had already seen each other for the last time. He wishes na Singapore pa rin ang piliin ko for my next destination but he doubts of continuing to see me again kasi parating na rin daw yung family nya.
He claimed that he knew how to get through me despite him being out of my league. I never believed him when he yabang about how he saw the ‘hidden libog’ in my eyes daw during our first meeting. Can guys really tell? He thought of 'scoring' me as a priority after finding out na ako pala yung ‘infamous’ ex-girlfriend ni Christian. He gambled on himself and went all out and aggressive. Para sa kanya, he considered it a win na daw If he can speak ng bastos freely in front of me.
Him being rude and jerk was something that he never thought he would be able to express to a girl. He hopes that I don’t get offended pa daw, but when he calls me his ‘pokpok’ and ‘parausan’, that’s what he truly sees me and nothing more. It’s not like he doesn’t find me attractive or nag fe-feeling gwapo sya… he told me straight na sex lang talaga ang gusto nya sa akin.
He told me about the past rejections he endured in the past from girls like me na according to him eh ‘maarte at snobby’... kaya daw minsan masyadong personal mga hirit nya sa akin. He doesn’t hate me as J, In fact I was nothing but kind to him naman daw. He just utterly hates the type of girl that I represent, kaya sobrang gratifying daw to treat me like I was nothing.
After our first hook-up, he admitted to ghosting me after realizing the potential impact of it to his friends and family. He’s concerned daw that I might get clingy or do something ‘loco’ to ruin his marriage and his relationship with his friends given my inexperience with the setup. Him being ‘obnoxious’ was his way daw to push me away and make it appear like hooking up with him was a mistake. He’s committed not to bother me anymore until nalaman nya na gusto akong pormahan ni Jeff.
“So nag selos ka?..” tanong ko pa habang natatawa.
“Haha hindi naman… gusto ko lang ipagmayabang sa sarili ko na nakantot na kita bago sya…” reply nya.
“And you did…” sabi ko sa kanya. “Dont worry Dan… I’ll never ever forget this whole trip, this whole experience...I owe it sayo..”
“Besides ikaw ang first blowjob ko… Y'know kung gaano sya ka big deal sya sa akin… Nobody would ever take that away from you… not Christian or even future boyfriends…” I said truthfully.
“Oo nga eh... biro mo hindi mo nagawa kay Christian tapos ako ginawa ko lang parausan bibig mo kanina…” Pagmamayabang pa nya. “Tapos inamin mo pa kanina na pakantot bibig mo… ******* talaga…”
Our cheesy convo took a drastic turn bigla and switched my libog back again. Dan wasn’t just blurting out dirty words for the sake na makapambastos lang... his candor delivery and the way he describes my disgraceful acts always finds its way to get through me. Damn! Ganun na ba ako ka-easy? na parang konting hirit nya ng mga ganun, nakukuha nya na agad yung libog ko.
“Sayo lang, Dan…” mahinang sabi ko while pleasuring myself
“Sayo lang alin?...” kunwari pang hindi nya nagets yung sinabi ko
“Papakantot ko lagi bibig ko sayo Dan…” I proudly declared while my orgasm starting to build up.
“Mangako ka ulit…” utos pa nya
I hesitated for a bit but then the chance of seeing him again was slim so mejo confident ako swearing and doing sweeping declarations. I get aroused din when he empowers me so what I said next almost brought me close to climax agad;
“I swear na papakantot ko lagi bibig ko sayo, dan…” I vowed with all my heart.
“Isusubo mo titi ko kahit saan at kahit kailan ko gusto… Tama?...” reply nya bidding for more affirmation.
“Yes I will…” I uttered while feeling myself getting really close.
“So kahit may boyfriend o asawa ka na, isusubo mo pa din titi ko kapag ginusto ko?….” dagdag pa nya
“They can all watch habang kinakantot mo mouth ko sa harap nila…” I cummed right after saying those words.
“Haha magdasal ka na hindi tayo magkita habang kasama mo si Christian… yayariin ko bibig mo sa harap nya…” pabiro nyang sabi
We talked for a while and finally said our goodbyes. But in order to get the right closure that we both agreed to, that scandal video of us has to be deleted talaga. I wanted to move on without leaving any evidence kahit pa somehow I trust him.
I was about to bring it up when our conversation ended abruptly. I waited for him to call me back but then he didn't. Regardless, I felt at peace na rin after that talk. Walang hung-ups or bitterness and regret. I was more than ready to get back to my previous life.
While browsing my phone to sleep, I checked those messages from Jeff that I ignored earlier and he’s being makulit talaga, proposing to join me for breakfast at my hotel nalang rather than go out for brunch. That way daw less hassle daw sa akin and no more excuse to turn him down.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I really do like Jeff. I’m attracted to him and he’s easy to get along with. I'm a sucker pa naman for guys making an effort and initiative. I’m just disheartened by his timing lang talaga. But now that Dan and I just closed our chapter and I have zero interest in getting back together with Christian, so going out with Jeff seems appropriate. I texted him back and set our breakfast meet-up at 8am. Nagulat ako na gising pa pala sya at nag reply sa akin ng *“*Yes! it's a date
See you...”------
I slept and woke up the next day around 7am-ish. I got everything ready including my luggage for easy check out later. I decided not to be overly dressed since it's a breakfast meet up so I just wore a simple baby pink sando and jeans. I decided to go with the casual nerdy look by wearing thick-framed low-prescription glasses to compensate for not wearing any makeup since I left them sa room ni Dan.
I met Jeff from the hotel lobby then we proceed to the breakfast hall. He immediately noticed the glasses and told me na bagay daw sya sa akin and that I look even cuter having it on. Enjoy naman kami while eating. We talked almost everything about each other and he always made me feel like I’m his 'ultimate crush'. Bolero lang...
I can't help but like this guy agad. There's magic in the air na parang sobrang rare mangyari on a first date. It doesn't help pa na he's gwapo and jacked and I couldn't help myself being amazed by him. He shared almost everything he knows about me and yet I'm embarrassed na hindi ko sya maalala. Kind of a feel-good romantic love story talaga if we really ended up together.
About an hour had passed when suddenly I heard my phone ringing and it was Dan. I canceled the call agad pero nag message din sya after;
“Nandito ako sa lobby, dala ko yung pouch mo… Iiwan ko nalang ba sa reception?...”
Panic mode agad ako. My heart flutters and my face starts to blush. I didn’t really care about my make-up pouch talaga as I can easily buy them again. All I cared about was deleting our video so we can finally move on na talaga. Jeff noticed that something was wrong so I told him an excuse that the message was from my mom and pretended that I forgot to get something she asked me to buy for her.
“Tara samahan kita, may time pa naman…” offer pa nya sa akin.
“Uhm.. can you wait here? saglit lang? I’ll check my bags lang sa room kasi alam ko nabili ko na sya…” palusot ko pa
“You sure?, samahan kita… tulungan na kita maghanap…” offer nya ulit habang patayo na sya
*“*No… no, ok lang... ako nalang… 5 minutes lang ako… besides babalik pa ako for some cake…” palusot ko ulit.
“Alright.. Take your time, ok lang ako dito…” sabi ni Jeff
I texted Dan agad to wait for me while I rushed myself to the lobby. Luckily nasa upper floor yung dining hall so at least these two idiots are in separate locations. I saw Dan agad from a distance holding a paper cup coffee and my pouch. Dan saw me as well na pababa ng stairs at lumapit sya agad para i-abot sa akin yung pouch pero I told him straight na all I wanted is for him to delete our video sa harapan ko mismo.
I told him that I knew that he shared our video after the whole video call fiasco I had with Christian last night. He apologized and said that he cropped the end part of the video (the part where it showed my face) with the intention of showing it to Brian lang. ‘Nagalit’ daw sya when Brian shared it sa buong tropa.
“Kaya pala gustong lumusob sa kwarto ko nung una… namukhaan ka nya pala hahaha…” biro pa ni Dan.
I urged Dan to delete the video so that he can leave na pero parang nakakahalata sya kung bakit ko sya pinapaalis agad. That left me no choice but to admit that I'm in the middle of a breakfast date with Jeff at the dining hall.
He didn't say anything at first pero bigla nalang nya akong hinawakan sa kamay sabay hila sa akin papunta sa lift lobby. I kept on insisting that he needs to go but then tumingin lang sya sa akin sabay sabing; “You swore diba? Nangako ka!....”
I was stunned and literally frozen to where I was standing.
“No no… no no no…nooo… not right now...” I said in a panic as I realized what he wanted me to do “We moved on, Jeff’s waiting… please naman…”
“You swore, J...” He said while smiling as he stepped inside the lift and waiting for me to come in.
