NSFWMy Rude Awakening Ch. 05
By Stellargirl
Ch. 05: Turning a No into a Yes
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I was a nervous wreck after sending him my room number… My heart was racing and I couldn’t even tell if I was feeling excited or having a panic attack. I've always been a straight arrow my entire life and I have never done such things to complicate my life. Both of my hands were in my face trying calm myself down a little bit and when the adrenaline started to subside, a huge groan came out of me. "What have I done?… this is stupid..." sigaw ng utak ko while slapping the bed out of frustration.
I got up and went to the toilet to slap some water sa face ko when suddenly I heard my phone ring and it was Dan. Honestly, I have no idea what to say so I just let it ring. He called a few more times and when I didn't answer, he just sent me an SMS. Apparently, he can't use the lift without a key card so he wanted me to pick him up sa looby.
No shit! I just realize na I still have an out pa pala to this situation. I can pretend na I didn't get his message or I was sleeping na while waiting for him or something, etc any lame crappy excuses that I can think of.
It was then that my rational thought process came back at mejo nahimasmasan na rin ako. I was in my bed staring at my phone as I watched it ring over and over. I put my phone in mute and hid it under my pillow hoping to lessen the guilt I was having. I know that I fucked up sobra, pero I was doing the right thing for me. Paasa na kung paasa... I decided to take a long bath na lang in preparation to sleep. After 20-30 minutes I decided to check my phone at puro missed calls lang pero walang message. Sabi ko pa sa sarili ko "Umalis na sya siguro... buti naman..."
I checked my inbox again and maybe he did send me a message na hindi nag appear sa notifications and still no messages. I was lying in bed and trying to think about what could've happened. I feel terrible sa nagawa ko. I wanted to text him to at least make me feel better. Should I pretend na kunwari na late ko nareceive mga message nya? Should I tell him na next time nalang at magpaasa na naman? I messed up bigtime. I was asking myself "bakit ba ako urong sulong?".
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Despite his rugged looks, Dan has this confidence that was somehow winning on me. Other than Christian, wala pang guy na may lakas ng loob na kausapin ako about sex let alone sabihin sa akin directly what he wanted to do to me sexually. Is that really enough to score a girl like me? I was way overthinking stuff too much. It's not like I'll end up marrying him or spend the rest of my life with this guy. I was still young then and about to enter my prime. I have all the time I need to find the right guy to spend my future with.
But for a ONS, do I really need to be picky in terms of looks? Well, it's not like I'm going to parade him as a guy I hooked up with. Wala namang feature sa FB na magaappear na lang bigla sa timeline na "Dan just hooked-up with J" and then all of our friends are gonna see and judge me for it. (Black mirror idea! anyone?)
Well, there's a good chance of Dan bragging to his friends about hooking up with me. Guys do that. I don't care about their friends... I don't know any of them and probably won't see them ever again. I'm more concerned about Christian but why would I? I'm single and free to do whatever I want. Christian never introduced me as his ex-girlfriend anyway so Dan's actions wasn't breaking any of Barney's Bro code (sort of).
Imagine the reaction from Christian when he finds out about me hooking up with Dan. Hmmm, let me rephrase that. Imagine the look on Christian's face if he finds out na I allowed Dan to fuck the hell out of me.
Outside of my prudish exterior, I have an imaginative mind din when feeling naughty and turned on (yes, tao lang ako and I fantasize too). I'm not as pure as I appear at marami rin akong kalokohan na naiisip. I don't think about sex that much but when I do, I can be rowdy as any person could be. Besides, nobody can judge you for your dirty thoughts as long as you just keep it to yourself. Sa mga actions ko lang naman ako maingat.
Along the way, I discovered that exhibitionism turned me on a little and in a way that it's not about the frenzy of doing it in a public place or the excitement of getting caught, but rather the thrill of exposing my inner libog to certain someone and seeing their surprised reaction na I'm capable pala to do the things na sa tingin nila na hindi ko magagawa. A dose of a rude awakening. Not sure if exhibitionism sya pero a set of eyes seeing me in a different way kind of turns me on a little.
Habang nagmumuni muni, a message from Dan suddenly pops into my phone screen. It says; "Tingin ko nagbago nanaman isip mo pero oks lang naiintindihan ko, wag ka magworry…." with smiley face emoticon. Honestly, I was expecting him to be mad but he wasn't. He was still being nice (or maybe at least pretending to one) despite na halos pinaasa at mukhang pinaglalaruan ko sya all night.
"I'm sorry Dan, hindi kasi ako sanay sa ganito tbh... I'm torn talaga but I cant…. alam mo naman kung bakit..." was all I could muster.
"At Least napa dalawang isip kita. Major accomplishment na yun!...." masayang reply pa rin nya.
"Haha. Well yeah, you almost… err.... basta..basta..." biro ko pa sa kanya.
"Almost na ano? na makantot kita? hehe..." direchahang reply nya.
There's that bastos word again na hindi ko alam bakit malakas ang effect sa akin. Since harmless chat lang naman, I replied "Yup..." at least kahit sakyan ko na lang ang trip nya.
"Anong 'yup'? sabihin mo!" reply ni Dan na mejo demanding. I keep replying "basta" and "basta yun na yun" at paulit ulit din sya sa pangungulit na sabihin ko ng buo yung gusto nyang marinig. Maarte ko syang sinagot in english pero he insisted na ulitin ko and this time in tagalog daw.
"Lol. Okay fine. Muntik mo na ako makantot. There! Happy?" Pataray ko pa rin na reply kahit na I'm starting to feel some arousal by our exchanges.
"No, sabihin mo name ko at wag yung napipilitan… sige na!" pangungulit pa rin nya.
I never had this kind of dirty convo with a guy before. Not even through messages or chats. I always feel icky when it comes to cyber or phone sex but I realized that this is the only courtesy that I can at least extend in return for the way na halos roller coaster ko syang pinapaasa all night.
I was imagining him at home na and jerking off to our exchanges. I kind of owe it to him na kahit papaano he can get some release through me without actually doing the deed. Besides chat lang naman, it's not actually happening or me saying things for real. Just blah blah words composed by my fingers and it won't mean anything. It's safer pa so I decided to just play along. If things get out of hand, I can just pretend na I got offended and never reply to him again.
"Dan, you lucky guy, muntik mo na ako makantot..." reply ko then I teasingly added pa na "In fact, iniimagine ko ngayon na kinakantot mo ako..."
In my mind, I was only teasing and typing those words to help him get off. But I would be lying to myself if what I told him wasn't true. There I was half-naked in my bed and pleasuring myself while picturing him right there on top of me.
"Taena talaga? Shit malibog ka rin pala…." his words were turning me on. "Nilalaro mo ba puke mo ngayon habang iniimagine mong niyayari kita?…." dagdag pa nya.
My libog blinded me sa mga kalye words nya. Not a single guy even dared to treat to me the way Dan do. Most suitors I had are either pa-cute at pa-sweet makipagusap. They asked me how my day was, if I already ate lunch, dinner, merienda etc, asked me about my sleep at wag daw magpapagutom... argh!. There's a guy pa nga who uses poems as part of his everyday greeting sa akin.
On the other hand, Dan was cursing at me and not hesitating to tell me na malibog ako. Full-fledge na yung confidence nya maybe because he thought it was working and there was no objection coming from me. God damn, he's right. Kuhang kuha na nya ako.
"Yup Dan you got me. You may not fuck me for real pero I swear to god na I'm here in my bed, playing with myself thinking of you and what could've happened..." I was saying or typing those words that never thought I was fully capable to express. Maybe malakas loob ko kasi chat lang? Regardless, I wasn't holding myself back anymore.
"You have no idea how lucky you are... Not a single guy came close to break me...." dagdag ko pa.
"Hehe talaga? Hindi ka nila napalibog? Sige lang J... labas mo lang libog mo sa akin. Gusto mo ba sabihin ko ang plano ko sanang gawin sayo dyan sa room mo kung natuloy tayo...?" reply nya.
He then started telling me in detail how he's gonna drag my tiny little body and fuck me at every corner of my room. He's very detailed and he's not suppressing himself sa mga words na sinasabi nya. He wasn't even asking for permission if papayag ba ako to do this and that. Instead, he provided in great detail how he intends to fuck me for his own sarap. He assured to me na he won't be gentle and will give me the royal fuck that I truly deserve (whatever that means). He's gonna treat me daw like a slut, a personal pokpok, his freaking bitch.
OMG! Is he for real? What he told me was degrading and downright slavery. But that night I wasn't in the right mind anymore to analyze the cruelty of what he just said. I wasn't offended or crying foul to any of it na parang I truly deserved to be treated that way. In fact, my head was picturing every word he's telling me. I wasn't able to respond to him anymore at puro mga bastos na messages nalang nya ang pumuno ng chat window namin. My eyes were locked-in sa phone screen ko... fully absorbing every dirty kalye words coming from him while I finger myself closing into a monumental orgasm.
"Ano J gusto mo totohanin ko yan? Kantutin kita ng parang pokpok? Tell me! Pokpok ba kita?..." tirada pa ni Dan na tingin kong dalang dala na rin sa libog.
I didn't even care what he looks like anymore or that he's just a stranger that I just met a couple of days ago. This guy doesn't deserve me and what we are doing were all against my prinsipyo... none of it matters to me anymore, I just don't want it to end.
"Let's do it for real. Pokpok mo na ako and I don't care. Just fuck me for real..." Reply ko surrendering to libog,
A call notification suddenly popped into my screen and it was him trying to video call me. I was lying in bed, wearing a white Sando top with a black bikini type underwear down below. My legs are spread a little with a hand in between my legs.
I answered the call and hold my phone on top of me enough to show my face and chest/tummy area. My left arm was fully stretched holding my phone while my right hand was playing with my clit. I was biting my lower lip, trying to look seductive and tease him some more.
I thought he was calling me because he was about to cum na and wanted to see me before doing so. He appeared in to my phone screen and surprised to see him just seating on a very well lit room with white earphones on his ears. Muntik pa nga ako matauhan ulit after seeing him again. No offence pero physically he's not really my type talaga.
He placed his earphone mic close to his mouth and said "Ulitin mo yung sinabi mo…. Gusto ko marinig sayo mismo..."
I froze in disbelief. Expressing myself through words on chat is one thing but he actually wanted me to say those words? with eye contact and all and with him watching me? Realizing that he was trying to put me in a situation where I've never been before, I started rubbing my pussy a little bit harshly and said "Sige...Let's do it for real…"
"Ano kita? Sabihin mo sa akin...." He insisted in a very serious tone.
"Pokpok mo…" I answered ng paungol.
"Pokpok nino...?" still asking me with a straight face.
"Oh my god, gusto mo pa talaga sabihin ko…." I asked softly while parang obvious na sa cam window yung pag galaw ng right arm ko.
"Sige na, pokpok ka nino?" Seryoso pa rin nyang tanong.
"Alright… Pokpok mo na ako Dan. I don't care anymore pero pokpok mo na ako. Yan ba gusto mong marinig?..." I blurted out na lang bigla not caring about the words I just said.
He smiled and he added "talaga? So paano pag taglibog ako, magpapakantot ka sa akin?"
I was about to reach my orgasm at wala na sa tamang katinuan when I said "Magpapakantot ako sayo Dan...". I started to reach the point na feeling ko I meant those words I was saying and not because he was asking me to.
He insisted pa na "Managako ka nga na magpapakantot ka sa akin!..."
I can only assume I was drugged because what I did next was something I have no words for. I raised my right hand up sa cam in a swearing position, the same hand that I was rubbing my pussy with na parang I was showing him pa how wet I was at libog na libog kong sinabi na "I swear to God Dan, magpapakantot ako sayo..."
I never thought na aabot ako sa point na ganito. Na sasabihin ko yun sa guy na halos dalawang araw ko palang nakikilala. Even today while writing and recollecting what happened, I have no words on why I was behaving like a depraved slut. Bakit ako pumapayag? Ang dami kong options. Bakit sa kanya pa?
I saw him stood up and started walking towards what seems like a corridor. He's holding the phone down so I couldn't see anything except his pants and the floor. I was so confused on what's going on so I kept asking him "saan ka?... saan ka?" and then he stopped, tinutok nya phone sa face nya ulit and said "Kanina pa ako nakatambay sa lift lobby ng floor mo…. Nakisabay lang ako sa ibang guests para makaakyat".
"Kung totoo yang sinasabi mo. Open mo yung door. Tama na arte. Totohanin na natin…." dagdag pa nya.
I ended the call right away. I hurried to the door wearing just my sando and underwear. I dimmed the lights a little bit then sinilip ko sya sa door keyhole. His ugly distorted face appeared. I took a deep breath with words "Oh my God..." screaming inside my fucked up brain and then I heard him knocked again.
I opened the door not knowing what about to happen will change my life forever…
By Stellargirl
Ch. 05: Turning a No into a Yes
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I was a nervous wreck after sending him my room number… My heart was racing and I couldn’t even tell if I was feeling excited or having a panic attack. I've always been a straight arrow my entire life and I have never done such things to complicate my life. Both of my hands were in my face trying calm myself down a little bit and when the adrenaline started to subside, a huge groan came out of me. "What have I done?… this is stupid..." sigaw ng utak ko while slapping the bed out of frustration.
I got up and went to the toilet to slap some water sa face ko when suddenly I heard my phone ring and it was Dan. Honestly, I have no idea what to say so I just let it ring. He called a few more times and when I didn't answer, he just sent me an SMS. Apparently, he can't use the lift without a key card so he wanted me to pick him up sa looby.
No shit! I just realize na I still have an out pa pala to this situation. I can pretend na I didn't get his message or I was sleeping na while waiting for him or something, etc any lame crappy excuses that I can think of.
It was then that my rational thought process came back at mejo nahimasmasan na rin ako. I was in my bed staring at my phone as I watched it ring over and over. I put my phone in mute and hid it under my pillow hoping to lessen the guilt I was having. I know that I fucked up sobra, pero I was doing the right thing for me. Paasa na kung paasa... I decided to take a long bath na lang in preparation to sleep. After 20-30 minutes I decided to check my phone at puro missed calls lang pero walang message. Sabi ko pa sa sarili ko "Umalis na sya siguro... buti naman..."
I checked my inbox again and maybe he did send me a message na hindi nag appear sa notifications and still no messages. I was lying in bed and trying to think about what could've happened. I feel terrible sa nagawa ko. I wanted to text him to at least make me feel better. Should I pretend na kunwari na late ko nareceive mga message nya? Should I tell him na next time nalang at magpaasa na naman? I messed up bigtime. I was asking myself "bakit ba ako urong sulong?".
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- Is it because of his connection with Christian? Not really. Eh ano naman diba? I wanted him to know pa nga na naka move-on na ako and enjoying life at maraming nagkakagusto sa akin.
- Is it because of my stupid morals and principles? I've never been careless and always been aware of the consequences of my actions. I grew up sticking into my beliefs kahit na there's a part of me wanted to loosen up a little bit. Is it guilt about breaking them or maybe because I'm concerned about other people's impression of me? There's no one around so I'm not concerned about any backlashes and for some reason, I wasn't feeling any guilt. It felt like I was waiting for the right moment to break free.
- Is this a perfect opportunity to break bad? Well, I'm in my hotel room all by myself. I'm pretty sure I won't be coming back to SG anymore. This situation with Dan or Christian is something that I can escape when it's over. I can back to my old ways and pretend that it didn't happen. Hmm interesting...
- Is it because of his looks? Yeah, probably that's it. In my deep fantasies, I've always envisioned myself na if ever I decided to hook-up for casual sex it's going to be with a suave looking athletic type of guy. A decent looking boy with a killer sex appeal. Ika nga nila, If you gotta do wrong, do it right diba. Why would I settle for anything less?
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Despite his rugged looks, Dan has this confidence that was somehow winning on me. Other than Christian, wala pang guy na may lakas ng loob na kausapin ako about sex let alone sabihin sa akin directly what he wanted to do to me sexually. Is that really enough to score a girl like me? I was way overthinking stuff too much. It's not like I'll end up marrying him or spend the rest of my life with this guy. I was still young then and about to enter my prime. I have all the time I need to find the right guy to spend my future with.
But for a ONS, do I really need to be picky in terms of looks? Well, it's not like I'm going to parade him as a guy I hooked up with. Wala namang feature sa FB na magaappear na lang bigla sa timeline na "Dan just hooked-up with J" and then all of our friends are gonna see and judge me for it. (Black mirror idea! anyone?)
Well, there's a good chance of Dan bragging to his friends about hooking up with me. Guys do that. I don't care about their friends... I don't know any of them and probably won't see them ever again. I'm more concerned about Christian but why would I? I'm single and free to do whatever I want. Christian never introduced me as his ex-girlfriend anyway so Dan's actions wasn't breaking any of Barney's Bro code (sort of).
Imagine the reaction from Christian when he finds out about me hooking up with Dan. Hmmm, let me rephrase that. Imagine the look on Christian's face if he finds out na I allowed Dan to fuck the hell out of me.
Outside of my prudish exterior, I have an imaginative mind din when feeling naughty and turned on (yes, tao lang ako and I fantasize too). I'm not as pure as I appear at marami rin akong kalokohan na naiisip. I don't think about sex that much but when I do, I can be rowdy as any person could be. Besides, nobody can judge you for your dirty thoughts as long as you just keep it to yourself. Sa mga actions ko lang naman ako maingat.
Along the way, I discovered that exhibitionism turned me on a little and in a way that it's not about the frenzy of doing it in a public place or the excitement of getting caught, but rather the thrill of exposing my inner libog to certain someone and seeing their surprised reaction na I'm capable pala to do the things na sa tingin nila na hindi ko magagawa. A dose of a rude awakening. Not sure if exhibitionism sya pero a set of eyes seeing me in a different way kind of turns me on a little.
Habang nagmumuni muni, a message from Dan suddenly pops into my phone screen. It says; "Tingin ko nagbago nanaman isip mo pero oks lang naiintindihan ko, wag ka magworry…." with smiley face emoticon. Honestly, I was expecting him to be mad but he wasn't. He was still being nice (or maybe at least pretending to one) despite na halos pinaasa at mukhang pinaglalaruan ko sya all night.
"I'm sorry Dan, hindi kasi ako sanay sa ganito tbh... I'm torn talaga but I cant…. alam mo naman kung bakit..." was all I could muster.
"At Least napa dalawang isip kita. Major accomplishment na yun!...." masayang reply pa rin nya.
"Haha. Well yeah, you almost… err.... basta..basta..." biro ko pa sa kanya.
"Almost na ano? na makantot kita? hehe..." direchahang reply nya.
There's that bastos word again na hindi ko alam bakit malakas ang effect sa akin. Since harmless chat lang naman, I replied "Yup..." at least kahit sakyan ko na lang ang trip nya.
"Anong 'yup'? sabihin mo!" reply ni Dan na mejo demanding. I keep replying "basta" and "basta yun na yun" at paulit ulit din sya sa pangungulit na sabihin ko ng buo yung gusto nyang marinig. Maarte ko syang sinagot in english pero he insisted na ulitin ko and this time in tagalog daw.
"Lol. Okay fine. Muntik mo na ako makantot. There! Happy?" Pataray ko pa rin na reply kahit na I'm starting to feel some arousal by our exchanges.
"No, sabihin mo name ko at wag yung napipilitan… sige na!" pangungulit pa rin nya.
I never had this kind of dirty convo with a guy before. Not even through messages or chats. I always feel icky when it comes to cyber or phone sex but I realized that this is the only courtesy that I can at least extend in return for the way na halos roller coaster ko syang pinapaasa all night.
I was imagining him at home na and jerking off to our exchanges. I kind of owe it to him na kahit papaano he can get some release through me without actually doing the deed. Besides chat lang naman, it's not actually happening or me saying things for real. Just blah blah words composed by my fingers and it won't mean anything. It's safer pa so I decided to just play along. If things get out of hand, I can just pretend na I got offended and never reply to him again.
"Dan, you lucky guy, muntik mo na ako makantot..." reply ko then I teasingly added pa na "In fact, iniimagine ko ngayon na kinakantot mo ako..."
In my mind, I was only teasing and typing those words to help him get off. But I would be lying to myself if what I told him wasn't true. There I was half-naked in my bed and pleasuring myself while picturing him right there on top of me.
"Taena talaga? Shit malibog ka rin pala…." his words were turning me on. "Nilalaro mo ba puke mo ngayon habang iniimagine mong niyayari kita?…." dagdag pa nya.
My libog blinded me sa mga kalye words nya. Not a single guy even dared to treat to me the way Dan do. Most suitors I had are either pa-cute at pa-sweet makipagusap. They asked me how my day was, if I already ate lunch, dinner, merienda etc, asked me about my sleep at wag daw magpapagutom... argh!. There's a guy pa nga who uses poems as part of his everyday greeting sa akin.
On the other hand, Dan was cursing at me and not hesitating to tell me na malibog ako. Full-fledge na yung confidence nya maybe because he thought it was working and there was no objection coming from me. God damn, he's right. Kuhang kuha na nya ako.
"Yup Dan you got me. You may not fuck me for real pero I swear to god na I'm here in my bed, playing with myself thinking of you and what could've happened..." I was saying or typing those words that never thought I was fully capable to express. Maybe malakas loob ko kasi chat lang? Regardless, I wasn't holding myself back anymore.
"You have no idea how lucky you are... Not a single guy came close to break me...." dagdag ko pa.
"Hehe talaga? Hindi ka nila napalibog? Sige lang J... labas mo lang libog mo sa akin. Gusto mo ba sabihin ko ang plano ko sanang gawin sayo dyan sa room mo kung natuloy tayo...?" reply nya.
He then started telling me in detail how he's gonna drag my tiny little body and fuck me at every corner of my room. He's very detailed and he's not suppressing himself sa mga words na sinasabi nya. He wasn't even asking for permission if papayag ba ako to do this and that. Instead, he provided in great detail how he intends to fuck me for his own sarap. He assured to me na he won't be gentle and will give me the royal fuck that I truly deserve (whatever that means). He's gonna treat me daw like a slut, a personal pokpok, his freaking bitch.
OMG! Is he for real? What he told me was degrading and downright slavery. But that night I wasn't in the right mind anymore to analyze the cruelty of what he just said. I wasn't offended or crying foul to any of it na parang I truly deserved to be treated that way. In fact, my head was picturing every word he's telling me. I wasn't able to respond to him anymore at puro mga bastos na messages nalang nya ang pumuno ng chat window namin. My eyes were locked-in sa phone screen ko... fully absorbing every dirty kalye words coming from him while I finger myself closing into a monumental orgasm.
"Ano J gusto mo totohanin ko yan? Kantutin kita ng parang pokpok? Tell me! Pokpok ba kita?..." tirada pa ni Dan na tingin kong dalang dala na rin sa libog.
I didn't even care what he looks like anymore or that he's just a stranger that I just met a couple of days ago. This guy doesn't deserve me and what we are doing were all against my prinsipyo... none of it matters to me anymore, I just don't want it to end.
"Let's do it for real. Pokpok mo na ako and I don't care. Just fuck me for real..." Reply ko surrendering to libog,
A call notification suddenly popped into my screen and it was him trying to video call me. I was lying in bed, wearing a white Sando top with a black bikini type underwear down below. My legs are spread a little with a hand in between my legs.
I answered the call and hold my phone on top of me enough to show my face and chest/tummy area. My left arm was fully stretched holding my phone while my right hand was playing with my clit. I was biting my lower lip, trying to look seductive and tease him some more.
I thought he was calling me because he was about to cum na and wanted to see me before doing so. He appeared in to my phone screen and surprised to see him just seating on a very well lit room with white earphones on his ears. Muntik pa nga ako matauhan ulit after seeing him again. No offence pero physically he's not really my type talaga.
He placed his earphone mic close to his mouth and said "Ulitin mo yung sinabi mo…. Gusto ko marinig sayo mismo..."
I froze in disbelief. Expressing myself through words on chat is one thing but he actually wanted me to say those words? with eye contact and all and with him watching me? Realizing that he was trying to put me in a situation where I've never been before, I started rubbing my pussy a little bit harshly and said "Sige...Let's do it for real…"
"Ano kita? Sabihin mo sa akin...." He insisted in a very serious tone.
"Pokpok mo…" I answered ng paungol.
"Pokpok nino...?" still asking me with a straight face.
"Oh my god, gusto mo pa talaga sabihin ko…." I asked softly while parang obvious na sa cam window yung pag galaw ng right arm ko.
"Sige na, pokpok ka nino?" Seryoso pa rin nyang tanong.
"Alright… Pokpok mo na ako Dan. I don't care anymore pero pokpok mo na ako. Yan ba gusto mong marinig?..." I blurted out na lang bigla not caring about the words I just said.
He smiled and he added "talaga? So paano pag taglibog ako, magpapakantot ka sa akin?"
I was about to reach my orgasm at wala na sa tamang katinuan when I said "Magpapakantot ako sayo Dan...". I started to reach the point na feeling ko I meant those words I was saying and not because he was asking me to.
He insisted pa na "Managako ka nga na magpapakantot ka sa akin!..."
I can only assume I was drugged because what I did next was something I have no words for. I raised my right hand up sa cam in a swearing position, the same hand that I was rubbing my pussy with na parang I was showing him pa how wet I was at libog na libog kong sinabi na "I swear to God Dan, magpapakantot ako sayo..."
I never thought na aabot ako sa point na ganito. Na sasabihin ko yun sa guy na halos dalawang araw ko palang nakikilala. Even today while writing and recollecting what happened, I have no words on why I was behaving like a depraved slut. Bakit ako pumapayag? Ang dami kong options. Bakit sa kanya pa?
I saw him stood up and started walking towards what seems like a corridor. He's holding the phone down so I couldn't see anything except his pants and the floor. I was so confused on what's going on so I kept asking him "saan ka?... saan ka?" and then he stopped, tinutok nya phone sa face nya ulit and said "Kanina pa ako nakatambay sa lift lobby ng floor mo…. Nakisabay lang ako sa ibang guests para makaakyat".
"Kung totoo yang sinasabi mo. Open mo yung door. Tama na arte. Totohanin na natin…." dagdag pa nya.
I ended the call right away. I hurried to the door wearing just my sando and underwear. I dimmed the lights a little bit then sinilip ko sya sa door keyhole. His ugly distorted face appeared. I took a deep breath with words "Oh my God..." screaming inside my fucked up brain and then I heard him knocked again.
I opened the door not knowing what about to happen will change my life forever…
