NSFWMy Rude Awakening Ch. 18 Part 1
By Stellargirl
Ch.18 Part 1- The Girl Next Door
Nakaupo pa rin ako sa floor, with cum dripping sa face ko while half-naked na nakasandal sa bed at nakaharap sa mirror. It took me a while before making any sort of movements. There’s no urgency to do anything… everything felt sooo right at that point. I kept on staring at myself into the mirror while my fucked up brain was trying to absorb what just happened and how I ended up right there leading to that very moment.
My brain & emotions took in the serenity of the quiet and peace. There wasn't any feeling of guilt or shame sa sarili ko. Imagine, I just broke my paramount rule - yet I don't have any regrets. None. Wala talaga. Sa totoo lang, I was kind of blaming myself pa nga for being soooo close minded and uptight before.
I reached my phone na nasa bed and I began browsing on Facebook. I saw a few photos posted by my SG friends during our dinner earlier and I couldn’t help but smile in disbelief sa bilis ng pangyayari. Parang kanina lang I was dolled up, looking all pretty and having fun with my friends... but there I was, in a room of a guy who by the way never existed in my life a week ago, sitting there on the floor half-naked with a face full of cum dripping all the way down to my chest.
I began having flashbacks of their earlier teasing of pushing me back together with Christian. They were all rooting for him and why wouldn’t they? They all witnessed his efforts just to surprise me. Like me, almost all of my girl barkadas were hopeless romantics at alam nila how much I love sweet surprises like that so pretty sure na mas kinikilig pa sila kesa sa akin.
I read some of their comments and most of it are mga pahaging hirit pa na “yihii…” and “love is in the air...” which are obviously directed at me and Christian. It’s funny that Christian wasn’t even in the group photos nor he was tagged and yet that didn’t stop them from their subtle teasing at pagbibiro. Most of their hirit naman eh directed towards me since sila naman talaga yung mga ka-close ko.
I don’t know why pero sobrang narcissistic lang to enjoy their teasing comments while my face was still glistening from the porno-like facial I had a moment ago. I glanced at those closet door mirrors in front of me at instead na ma-guilty, I gave myself a devilish smile pa while sarcastically talking to myself in the mirror; “Haha! and this is how you repay Christian for that sweet surprise...?”
Not long after, I decided to clean myself up. I got up and wore my pants before heading straight to the bathroom. Sobrang liwanag ng lights sa bathroom so I can clearly see pa lalo from the lababo mirror how much nababoy talaga yung face ko. I smiled pa and took one last long look sa sarili ko before finally washing my cum filled face. I found a clean looking white towel naka-hang sa wall so ginamit ko sya to dry my face and then later wrapped that towel around my naked upper body before heading back to the room.
I grabbed my pink top and was about to get dressed when I heard an incoming message notification alert sa phone ko. It was Jeff reconfirming our brunch date the next day. I haven’t forgotten about our date naman pero na realize ko lang na maybe it’s better not to go through with it. A part of me wanted to stay there with Dan and spend my last few SG minutes with him.
I texted him back and told him politely about me having second thoughts about our brunch date even suggesting we should cancel it na lang kahit na magmukha na akong petty at paasa nanaman. I was trying to recall why I even agreed to this date in the first place. I know that I acted so impulsive because I find him cute. Jeff seems like a decent guy and I don't wanna drag him into my quicksand. He truly deserves a lot better.
However, a part of me felt elated by this chaos. I’ve always been straight-edge and deflects a complicated life... I’ve never done anything na ikasisira ko. But somehow carrying this huge secret with me brought spice into my life. Maybe because I began trusting Dan more so I have less paranoia?
I kept on having these vivid thoughts of what if someone found out about this kalokohan ko with Dan. Someone who knows me as prim and proper conservative chic and yet malalaman nila na okay lang pala ako bastusin. Someone who always thought of me as choosy & picky (yes, marami sila) tapos they’ll find out na sa kagaya lang pala ni Dan ako papatol tapos I’m allowing him pa to treat me as his personal slut and parausan. Positive or nega, I was curious about what they’ll think about me. Matuturn-off ba sila? Are they going to bitterly judge me and think that I deserve it? Or will they be crushed and disappointed thinking na sa kagaya lang pala ni Dan ang bagsak ko?
Looking back and assessing what happened, that entire anarchy happened because of being driven primarily by the thrill of cheating. My definition of cheating might be different from others since I was single then and technically I wasn’t doing anything wrong. However, the feeling of excitement and the thrill from doing something unthinkable behind someone’s upright perception about me was the catalyst. Christian, suitors and friends from the past till present, and my family - all of them are victims of my misleading persona. The mental satisfaction of deceiving them all is way beyond the physical sarap from Dan’s kantot. To this day, sex will always be a mental gratification for me than physical pleasure.
I received a reply from Jeff at kinukulit nya talaga ako na matuloy yung brunch date namin. After a few back and forth yadda yadda exchanges, I decided to tell him the truth about my past relationship with Christian and use that as an excuse na lang para hindi kami matuloy. I never intended to ****** on Christian, but I told Jeff that he confessed of still having feelings for me despite currently dating Nat. I stressed out that I never considered getting back together with Christian but it would be hella weird to go out with one of his friends and complicates everyone’s relationship with one another. Lol and yet pumatol ako kay Dan...
Jeff and I kept on chatting for merely 2-3 hours. He was fun to talk to naman and he told me pa na he went home na din kasi nawalan na rin sya ng gana maglaro ng game nila dahil kausap nya ako. After getting more comfortable with him, Jeff finally confessed about his years-long crush on me. He told this story about us meeting each other way before pa and also admitted that he knew about my past with Christian. He chose to be cool lang and pretended na wala syang alam kasi wala naman sinasabi sa kanya si Christian. Feeling pa nya na hindi na rin maalala ni Christian na nagkakilala kami before.
Kwento pa nya na we met each other a couple of times way way back at this volunteer group where Christian and I met (and Nat). He has long hair then and wasn’t confident about girls kaya hanggang tingin lang daw sya sa akin. He remained connected with Nat through the years and they became closer friends after reuniting in SG. After finding out about Christian and Nat, he thought of communicating with me but he decided not to as wasn’t sure if I remembered him.
Well he’s right, I have no memory of meeting him before. There’s so many people in that volunteer group at syempre at that time feeling “nene” pa ako and I wasn’t into boys pa so I hardly remember any of them. I have doubts pa nga about his “secret crush” admission because… well, those confessions are mostly never true and just a conversational piece for flirting.
But then he started telling me about a few things that he knew about my life, like my travels, hardships sa board exams etc… It turns out he’s been stalking my social accounts for years. According to him, he has no idea why he’s doing that but there’s something about me daw that fascinates him and that he’s fine just being a silent fan.
I was in awe sa mga nalaman ko. Of course I find him creepy but I wasn’t totally weirded out by his harmless stalkings. Honestly he impressed me pa nga and came off as a sweet dude… I like him and it’s killing me for being in this predicament with Dan before his confession. Kahit papaano mejo may panghihinayang feeling pa rin lalo na I could’ve given myself fully to a much more deserving guy like him.
But somehow, I doubt that Jeff is that guy. I mean he’s too passive to be that person who can unlock my inner libog. How I wish na he’s more aggressive like Dan. Jeff is one of those goody goody guys who doesn’t do well with rejection and rather settle and wait for the convenient time to make his move to avoid failing miserably.
Regardless, Jeff's confession was flattering but the timing was terribly off. That night I see him as nothing more than another person to deceive and he doesn’t deserve that. I’d prefer to shut him down na lang agad and spare him but I also recognized that nice guys like him won’t come along that often.
This situation with Dan will be over soon as I don’t expect this kalokohan to go on after this SG visit (Well, I was wrong!). At that time iniisip ko na I can move past this easily at babalik din ako sa old self ko. Everything will go back to normal and when it does, it's nice to have a guy like Jeff who’s someone na I can see a future with romantically.
“Kamusta pala yung ‘date’ nyo last week ni Dan LOL…?” Out of the blue na message ni Jeff.
My face blushed sa biglaang tanong nya about kay Dan. I think I composed around 5-10 different replies that I kept on deleting over and over until I settled with a single word reply na “why?”
“Wala naman, kausap ko sya kanina bago ako umuwi… Nalaman nya kasi kay Brian yung plans natin tom... tinanong ko sya about you kasi nga ang palabas nya sa tropa na pinopormahan ka nya” paliwanag nya.
“What did he say?...” I asked.
“Sabi nya inaasar nya lang daw si Christian…” reply ni Jeff.
“Type ka nya pero yung mga sinasabi nya hindi flattering eh…. Mejo bastos sya magsalita tungkol sayo eh… pinipigilan ko lang sarili ko..” Pabida pa nya sa akin.
“Like what?...” curious na tanong ko ulit.
“Hehe wala naman. Mejo bastos eh alam mo na. Bitter siguro kasi hindi umubra sayo hehe... Hindi ko lang nagustuhan na ikaw yung nasasabihan nya ng ganun…” sagot nya sa akin
“Anong mga bastos na sinasabi nya… you can tell me. I don't mind promise…” Pangungulit ko pa sa kanya and implying pa na he can say whatever he wants to say to me regardless kung bastos or offensive pa sya.
“Basta haha R18 eh. Di ka pa pwede dun haha…” nakakainis nyang reply “Wag ka ma-bother, next time na magsalita pa sya ng ganun tungkol sayo… sasabihan ko na talaga sya”
I was shaking my head in disbelief. Here I was dropping him all the hints and giving him the signal na never ko pa ginawa sa iba and yet he still assumes na I wasn’t ready for matured conversation? WTH. I get it... he wanted to be a gentleman for sure, pero nakaka frustrate lang talaga na ako na nga yung gumagawa ng way to break this invisible prude barrier and all he needed to do is to capitalize the opportunity. In my head I was like “I’m giving you the advantage, Enjoy!”
Those bastos words that I was asking from him weren't coming from him naman... So, he’s only repeating kung ano yung mga kabastusan na sinabi ni Dan tungkol sa akin... pero he couldn’t do it talaga. He couldn’t say or utter those words to me like I’m some kind of madre. Unbelievable!
“Pero tropa ko naman yang si Dan...” Comment pa nya na mas lalong naging topic na namin si Dan. “Naka move-on naman na, may babae nga ngayon na nasa kwarto nya… panibagong victim...”
“Ganun? You saw her?...” I asked while kinakabahan.
“Hehe actually hindi pero pinapasok kanina ng ka-hausmate nya …. Palabas ni Dan pamangkin daw ng asawa nya at makikitulog... ako lang ata ang hindi naniniwala haha!...” Kwento pa nya.
“Maybe relative naman talaga...” Reply ko para hindi sila magduda.
“Well everyone seems to be buying it pero diba kung totoo edi sana pinakilala na sa amin… Ngayon lang sya nag sikreto eh. Baka natatakot na may magsumbong sa asawa nya...” Reply pa nya.
I wanted to keep our topic away from Dan so I kept my replies very vague without confirming or denying anything. I steered away from our conversation and continued giving him those subtle hints like ‘I’m bored’ and ‘I can’t sleep’ act hoping he would start to initiate something per wala talaga. He got me so frustrated na parang na turn-off ako sa kanya bigla. Naisip ko na despite how perfect he is on paper, maybe he’s not the right guy for me. Did Dan ruin me for nice guys?
After a few more exchanges with Jeff, I decided to text Dan about the rumor I heard.
“Hey, you told them na pamangkin ako ng wife mo? Lol.” Message ko kay Dan.
“Haha talaga? Sino may sabi?... Si Jeff?” reply nya.
“Basta…” Maikling sagot ko sa kanya.
“Sabi na eh… Ikaw kausap nya.... Kanina pa sya may ka-text eh” reply pa nya. “Ganun na lang pinalabas ko kasi gusto ka nila makilala...”
“Okay, pero I don’t think na maniniwala sila…” sagot ko sa kanya.
“Haha eh pano? Gusto mo sabihin ko sa kanilang lahat yung totoo?…” reply nya na parang nangaasar. “Sure ako na nilalandi ka ni Jeff ngayon?...”
I ignored nalang his message hoping to steer the topic away from Jeff. Despite his pang aasar, I can sense his annoyance na hindi nya ako maiyabang sa kanila. Alam nya sa sarili nya ung totoo and I sense his frustration from his profound candor towards me.
“Bentang benta ka kasi sa mga tropa ah hehe… wala silang kaalam alam na nasa kwarto lang kita ngayon at ginawa ko lang parausan yang bibig mo haha....” he said as our convo took a turn bigla.
Well, he’s right about that. I began having realizations of going to have to walk this earth and face my friends, parents and suitors knowing that I allow a f*ckin nobody to violate my mouth. I can’t wait to face and smile at them while having those thoughts in mind.
I’m baffled by how much control Dan has over me. To hear (or read) him say that with just a single bastos message instantly switch me back to my libog mode. He doesn’t have to physically touch me to switch the right buttons... I’m a next gen slut! My libog activation is wireless.
“Haha yeah sorry nalang sa kanilang lahat…” reply ko pa while I began touching myself once again. “I have zero regrets Dan… I love the fact na wala silang kaalam alam...”
“Taena oo, wala silang kaalam alam na malibog ka....” reply pa nya sa akin. “******* J, wala silang kaalam alam na ginawa ko lang parausan bibig mo kanina lang...”
“Wala silang kaalam alam na pumupunta ka sa bahay ng lalaki para chumupa…” tuloy tuloy nyang mga messages.
“Kita ko sa FB na ang daming nagli-like ng mga pictures ng mga pasyal mo dito sa SG, Taena kung alam lang nila na nagpaka-pokpok ka lang dito. Dapat ang mga pino-post mo eh yung blowjob video mo kanina haha…”
**“**Si Brian proud na proud pa sa mga stolen shots nya sayo… Taena, kung alam nya lang na pinapaliguan ko lang ng tamod yang mukha mo…”
“Binibiro pa ako ni Jeff na baka pokpok daw ang kasama ko ngayon sa kwarto. Haha tama syang **** sya. Pokpok ko lang yung popormahan nya haha…”
His outspoken harsh realities literally filled my phone screen. I absorbed every deragoratory word and demeaning remarks and fuck!, every bit of my body felt instantly on fire. I forgot about Jeff who kept on sending me messages hoping I’d reply. I don’t have time for your pa-cute act...
I unbuttoned and zipped down my jeans sabay insert ng right hand ko inside my panties to play with my clit. The scene felt all similar during my first encounter with him, pleasuring myself while libog na libog na binabastos nya sa chat. My pussy felt so wet and super sensitive na parang every movement of my fingers might bring me agad to my climax. I badly wanted to get fucked.
“Sensya na hehe. Nalilibugan kasi ako na nanjan ka lang sa kwarto at wala silang kaalam alam...” bawi pa nya na mejo nahalata nya siguro na baka na-ooffend na ako sa mga sinasabi nya kasi hindi na ako nagrereply.
“Did you just say sorry? Lol… Don’t be, you are just speaking your mind and being brutally honest with me. I like that about you. That’s how you got me and that’s how you’ll keep getting me…” reply ko sa kanya. “Besides lahat naman ng mga sinasabi mo are true… I enjoy cheating away from everyone’s blind perception about me.” dagdag ko pa.
Then I took a selfie habang nakahiga and held my phone with my right hand fully stretched out palayo sa akin. Although it is hidden from the camera view, you can tell by the position of my other arm na it’s reaching onto something… that’s my left hand playing with my basang basang pussy. Everything seems like a repeat of what happened during our first encounter…. Yet only this time, I sent him a selfie with my tongue sticking out licking my upper lip corner.
“So I’m keeping it all real with you as well. I'm here in your bed playing with myself and patiently waiting for you to come…” pang-aakit ko pa sa kanya.
“They can make ligaw all they want pero you own me…. You don’t need to make me feel good Dan. Humiga ka lang and watch me ride your cock till labasan ka
”
By Stellargirl
Ch.18 Part 1- The Girl Next Door
Nakaupo pa rin ako sa floor, with cum dripping sa face ko while half-naked na nakasandal sa bed at nakaharap sa mirror. It took me a while before making any sort of movements. There’s no urgency to do anything… everything felt sooo right at that point. I kept on staring at myself into the mirror while my fucked up brain was trying to absorb what just happened and how I ended up right there leading to that very moment.
My brain & emotions took in the serenity of the quiet and peace. There wasn't any feeling of guilt or shame sa sarili ko. Imagine, I just broke my paramount rule - yet I don't have any regrets. None. Wala talaga. Sa totoo lang, I was kind of blaming myself pa nga for being soooo close minded and uptight before.
I reached my phone na nasa bed and I began browsing on Facebook. I saw a few photos posted by my SG friends during our dinner earlier and I couldn’t help but smile in disbelief sa bilis ng pangyayari. Parang kanina lang I was dolled up, looking all pretty and having fun with my friends... but there I was, in a room of a guy who by the way never existed in my life a week ago, sitting there on the floor half-naked with a face full of cum dripping all the way down to my chest.
I began having flashbacks of their earlier teasing of pushing me back together with Christian. They were all rooting for him and why wouldn’t they? They all witnessed his efforts just to surprise me. Like me, almost all of my girl barkadas were hopeless romantics at alam nila how much I love sweet surprises like that so pretty sure na mas kinikilig pa sila kesa sa akin.
I read some of their comments and most of it are mga pahaging hirit pa na “yihii…” and “love is in the air...” which are obviously directed at me and Christian. It’s funny that Christian wasn’t even in the group photos nor he was tagged and yet that didn’t stop them from their subtle teasing at pagbibiro. Most of their hirit naman eh directed towards me since sila naman talaga yung mga ka-close ko.
I don’t know why pero sobrang narcissistic lang to enjoy their teasing comments while my face was still glistening from the porno-like facial I had a moment ago. I glanced at those closet door mirrors in front of me at instead na ma-guilty, I gave myself a devilish smile pa while sarcastically talking to myself in the mirror; “Haha! and this is how you repay Christian for that sweet surprise...?”
Not long after, I decided to clean myself up. I got up and wore my pants before heading straight to the bathroom. Sobrang liwanag ng lights sa bathroom so I can clearly see pa lalo from the lababo mirror how much nababoy talaga yung face ko. I smiled pa and took one last long look sa sarili ko before finally washing my cum filled face. I found a clean looking white towel naka-hang sa wall so ginamit ko sya to dry my face and then later wrapped that towel around my naked upper body before heading back to the room.
I grabbed my pink top and was about to get dressed when I heard an incoming message notification alert sa phone ko. It was Jeff reconfirming our brunch date the next day. I haven’t forgotten about our date naman pero na realize ko lang na maybe it’s better not to go through with it. A part of me wanted to stay there with Dan and spend my last few SG minutes with him.
I texted him back and told him politely about me having second thoughts about our brunch date even suggesting we should cancel it na lang kahit na magmukha na akong petty at paasa nanaman. I was trying to recall why I even agreed to this date in the first place. I know that I acted so impulsive because I find him cute. Jeff seems like a decent guy and I don't wanna drag him into my quicksand. He truly deserves a lot better.
However, a part of me felt elated by this chaos. I’ve always been straight-edge and deflects a complicated life... I’ve never done anything na ikasisira ko. But somehow carrying this huge secret with me brought spice into my life. Maybe because I began trusting Dan more so I have less paranoia?
I kept on having these vivid thoughts of what if someone found out about this kalokohan ko with Dan. Someone who knows me as prim and proper conservative chic and yet malalaman nila na okay lang pala ako bastusin. Someone who always thought of me as choosy & picky (yes, marami sila) tapos they’ll find out na sa kagaya lang pala ni Dan ako papatol tapos I’m allowing him pa to treat me as his personal slut and parausan. Positive or nega, I was curious about what they’ll think about me. Matuturn-off ba sila? Are they going to bitterly judge me and think that I deserve it? Or will they be crushed and disappointed thinking na sa kagaya lang pala ni Dan ang bagsak ko?
Looking back and assessing what happened, that entire anarchy happened because of being driven primarily by the thrill of cheating. My definition of cheating might be different from others since I was single then and technically I wasn’t doing anything wrong. However, the feeling of excitement and the thrill from doing something unthinkable behind someone’s upright perception about me was the catalyst. Christian, suitors and friends from the past till present, and my family - all of them are victims of my misleading persona. The mental satisfaction of deceiving them all is way beyond the physical sarap from Dan’s kantot. To this day, sex will always be a mental gratification for me than physical pleasure.
I received a reply from Jeff at kinukulit nya talaga ako na matuloy yung brunch date namin. After a few back and forth yadda yadda exchanges, I decided to tell him the truth about my past relationship with Christian and use that as an excuse na lang para hindi kami matuloy. I never intended to ****** on Christian, but I told Jeff that he confessed of still having feelings for me despite currently dating Nat. I stressed out that I never considered getting back together with Christian but it would be hella weird to go out with one of his friends and complicates everyone’s relationship with one another. Lol and yet pumatol ako kay Dan...
Jeff and I kept on chatting for merely 2-3 hours. He was fun to talk to naman and he told me pa na he went home na din kasi nawalan na rin sya ng gana maglaro ng game nila dahil kausap nya ako. After getting more comfortable with him, Jeff finally confessed about his years-long crush on me. He told this story about us meeting each other way before pa and also admitted that he knew about my past with Christian. He chose to be cool lang and pretended na wala syang alam kasi wala naman sinasabi sa kanya si Christian. Feeling pa nya na hindi na rin maalala ni Christian na nagkakilala kami before.
Kwento pa nya na we met each other a couple of times way way back at this volunteer group where Christian and I met (and Nat). He has long hair then and wasn’t confident about girls kaya hanggang tingin lang daw sya sa akin. He remained connected with Nat through the years and they became closer friends after reuniting in SG. After finding out about Christian and Nat, he thought of communicating with me but he decided not to as wasn’t sure if I remembered him.
Well he’s right, I have no memory of meeting him before. There’s so many people in that volunteer group at syempre at that time feeling “nene” pa ako and I wasn’t into boys pa so I hardly remember any of them. I have doubts pa nga about his “secret crush” admission because… well, those confessions are mostly never true and just a conversational piece for flirting.
But then he started telling me about a few things that he knew about my life, like my travels, hardships sa board exams etc… It turns out he’s been stalking my social accounts for years. According to him, he has no idea why he’s doing that but there’s something about me daw that fascinates him and that he’s fine just being a silent fan.
I was in awe sa mga nalaman ko. Of course I find him creepy but I wasn’t totally weirded out by his harmless stalkings. Honestly he impressed me pa nga and came off as a sweet dude… I like him and it’s killing me for being in this predicament with Dan before his confession. Kahit papaano mejo may panghihinayang feeling pa rin lalo na I could’ve given myself fully to a much more deserving guy like him.
But somehow, I doubt that Jeff is that guy. I mean he’s too passive to be that person who can unlock my inner libog. How I wish na he’s more aggressive like Dan. Jeff is one of those goody goody guys who doesn’t do well with rejection and rather settle and wait for the convenient time to make his move to avoid failing miserably.
Regardless, Jeff's confession was flattering but the timing was terribly off. That night I see him as nothing more than another person to deceive and he doesn’t deserve that. I’d prefer to shut him down na lang agad and spare him but I also recognized that nice guys like him won’t come along that often.
This situation with Dan will be over soon as I don’t expect this kalokohan to go on after this SG visit (Well, I was wrong!). At that time iniisip ko na I can move past this easily at babalik din ako sa old self ko. Everything will go back to normal and when it does, it's nice to have a guy like Jeff who’s someone na I can see a future with romantically.
“Kamusta pala yung ‘date’ nyo last week ni Dan LOL…?” Out of the blue na message ni Jeff.
My face blushed sa biglaang tanong nya about kay Dan. I think I composed around 5-10 different replies that I kept on deleting over and over until I settled with a single word reply na “why?”
“Wala naman, kausap ko sya kanina bago ako umuwi… Nalaman nya kasi kay Brian yung plans natin tom... tinanong ko sya about you kasi nga ang palabas nya sa tropa na pinopormahan ka nya” paliwanag nya.
“What did he say?...” I asked.
“Sabi nya inaasar nya lang daw si Christian…” reply ni Jeff.
“Type ka nya pero yung mga sinasabi nya hindi flattering eh…. Mejo bastos sya magsalita tungkol sayo eh… pinipigilan ko lang sarili ko..” Pabida pa nya sa akin.
“Like what?...” curious na tanong ko ulit.
“Hehe wala naman. Mejo bastos eh alam mo na. Bitter siguro kasi hindi umubra sayo hehe... Hindi ko lang nagustuhan na ikaw yung nasasabihan nya ng ganun…” sagot nya sa akin
“Anong mga bastos na sinasabi nya… you can tell me. I don't mind promise…” Pangungulit ko pa sa kanya and implying pa na he can say whatever he wants to say to me regardless kung bastos or offensive pa sya.
“Basta haha R18 eh. Di ka pa pwede dun haha…” nakakainis nyang reply “Wag ka ma-bother, next time na magsalita pa sya ng ganun tungkol sayo… sasabihan ko na talaga sya”
I was shaking my head in disbelief. Here I was dropping him all the hints and giving him the signal na never ko pa ginawa sa iba and yet he still assumes na I wasn’t ready for matured conversation? WTH. I get it... he wanted to be a gentleman for sure, pero nakaka frustrate lang talaga na ako na nga yung gumagawa ng way to break this invisible prude barrier and all he needed to do is to capitalize the opportunity. In my head I was like “I’m giving you the advantage, Enjoy!”
Those bastos words that I was asking from him weren't coming from him naman... So, he’s only repeating kung ano yung mga kabastusan na sinabi ni Dan tungkol sa akin... pero he couldn’t do it talaga. He couldn’t say or utter those words to me like I’m some kind of madre. Unbelievable!
“Pero tropa ko naman yang si Dan...” Comment pa nya na mas lalong naging topic na namin si Dan. “Naka move-on naman na, may babae nga ngayon na nasa kwarto nya… panibagong victim...”
“Ganun? You saw her?...” I asked while kinakabahan.
“Hehe actually hindi pero pinapasok kanina ng ka-hausmate nya …. Palabas ni Dan pamangkin daw ng asawa nya at makikitulog... ako lang ata ang hindi naniniwala haha!...” Kwento pa nya.
“Maybe relative naman talaga...” Reply ko para hindi sila magduda.
“Well everyone seems to be buying it pero diba kung totoo edi sana pinakilala na sa amin… Ngayon lang sya nag sikreto eh. Baka natatakot na may magsumbong sa asawa nya...” Reply pa nya.
I wanted to keep our topic away from Dan so I kept my replies very vague without confirming or denying anything. I steered away from our conversation and continued giving him those subtle hints like ‘I’m bored’ and ‘I can’t sleep’ act hoping he would start to initiate something per wala talaga. He got me so frustrated na parang na turn-off ako sa kanya bigla. Naisip ko na despite how perfect he is on paper, maybe he’s not the right guy for me. Did Dan ruin me for nice guys?
After a few more exchanges with Jeff, I decided to text Dan about the rumor I heard.
“Hey, you told them na pamangkin ako ng wife mo? Lol.” Message ko kay Dan.
“Haha talaga? Sino may sabi?... Si Jeff?” reply nya.
“Basta…” Maikling sagot ko sa kanya.
“Sabi na eh… Ikaw kausap nya.... Kanina pa sya may ka-text eh” reply pa nya. “Ganun na lang pinalabas ko kasi gusto ka nila makilala...”
“Okay, pero I don’t think na maniniwala sila…” sagot ko sa kanya.
“Haha eh pano? Gusto mo sabihin ko sa kanilang lahat yung totoo?…” reply nya na parang nangaasar. “Sure ako na nilalandi ka ni Jeff ngayon?...”
I ignored nalang his message hoping to steer the topic away from Jeff. Despite his pang aasar, I can sense his annoyance na hindi nya ako maiyabang sa kanila. Alam nya sa sarili nya ung totoo and I sense his frustration from his profound candor towards me.
“Bentang benta ka kasi sa mga tropa ah hehe… wala silang kaalam alam na nasa kwarto lang kita ngayon at ginawa ko lang parausan yang bibig mo haha....” he said as our convo took a turn bigla.
Well, he’s right about that. I began having realizations of going to have to walk this earth and face my friends, parents and suitors knowing that I allow a f*ckin nobody to violate my mouth. I can’t wait to face and smile at them while having those thoughts in mind.
I’m baffled by how much control Dan has over me. To hear (or read) him say that with just a single bastos message instantly switch me back to my libog mode. He doesn’t have to physically touch me to switch the right buttons... I’m a next gen slut! My libog activation is wireless.
“Haha yeah sorry nalang sa kanilang lahat…” reply ko pa while I began touching myself once again. “I have zero regrets Dan… I love the fact na wala silang kaalam alam...”
“Taena oo, wala silang kaalam alam na malibog ka....” reply pa nya sa akin. “******* J, wala silang kaalam alam na ginawa ko lang parausan bibig mo kanina lang...”
“Wala silang kaalam alam na pumupunta ka sa bahay ng lalaki para chumupa…” tuloy tuloy nyang mga messages.
“Kita ko sa FB na ang daming nagli-like ng mga pictures ng mga pasyal mo dito sa SG, Taena kung alam lang nila na nagpaka-pokpok ka lang dito. Dapat ang mga pino-post mo eh yung blowjob video mo kanina haha…”
**“**Si Brian proud na proud pa sa mga stolen shots nya sayo… Taena, kung alam nya lang na pinapaliguan ko lang ng tamod yang mukha mo…”
“Binibiro pa ako ni Jeff na baka pokpok daw ang kasama ko ngayon sa kwarto. Haha tama syang **** sya. Pokpok ko lang yung popormahan nya haha…”
His outspoken harsh realities literally filled my phone screen. I absorbed every deragoratory word and demeaning remarks and fuck!, every bit of my body felt instantly on fire. I forgot about Jeff who kept on sending me messages hoping I’d reply. I don’t have time for your pa-cute act...
I unbuttoned and zipped down my jeans sabay insert ng right hand ko inside my panties to play with my clit. The scene felt all similar during my first encounter with him, pleasuring myself while libog na libog na binabastos nya sa chat. My pussy felt so wet and super sensitive na parang every movement of my fingers might bring me agad to my climax. I badly wanted to get fucked.
“Sensya na hehe. Nalilibugan kasi ako na nanjan ka lang sa kwarto at wala silang kaalam alam...” bawi pa nya na mejo nahalata nya siguro na baka na-ooffend na ako sa mga sinasabi nya kasi hindi na ako nagrereply.
“Did you just say sorry? Lol… Don’t be, you are just speaking your mind and being brutally honest with me. I like that about you. That’s how you got me and that’s how you’ll keep getting me…” reply ko sa kanya. “Besides lahat naman ng mga sinasabi mo are true… I enjoy cheating away from everyone’s blind perception about me.” dagdag ko pa.
Then I took a selfie habang nakahiga and held my phone with my right hand fully stretched out palayo sa akin. Although it is hidden from the camera view, you can tell by the position of my other arm na it’s reaching onto something… that’s my left hand playing with my basang basang pussy. Everything seems like a repeat of what happened during our first encounter…. Yet only this time, I sent him a selfie with my tongue sticking out licking my upper lip corner.
“So I’m keeping it all real with you as well. I'm here in your bed playing with myself and patiently waiting for you to come…” pang-aakit ko pa sa kanya.
“They can make ligaw all they want pero you own me…. You don’t need to make me feel good Dan. Humiga ka lang and watch me ride your cock till labasan ka
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