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Continuing from part 2.
Yung plan namin ni Kish na magramen is Friday dapat, kinabukasan nanghiram siya money and nagpahiram ako kaso 1k lang. Sa isip isip ko baka ako lang to, baka inuulol ko lang rin sarili ko. Baka talagang magaling siya on making people feel good. Maybe tinatry niya lang ako perahan kasi alam niya gusto ko siya. And lalo nadagdagan worries ko kasi after niya manghiram, sabi niya ibabalik niya in 2 days. Then nagpromise siya na we can set another time para sa date namin. Umasa ko and that’s the last time nagreply siya sakin, not until Monday na. Nagtaka ko, sabi ko bat di man lang siya nagreply throughout the weekend. Valid naman, pagkabigay pero bigla dedma. Pero inexplain niya na tinatry niya lang magspend more time with her baby boy and di siya pala gamit ng phone (which alam ko namang kalokohan lang).
Anyways, the week went okay naman. Lagi kami magkausap throughout the day. Lagi rin siya lumalabas ng around 10am para “magwork”. Masama man pakinggan pero araw araw I pray na wala siyang makuhang client. Yes wala ko sa lugar na sabihan siya itigil yun pero what can I do? We’re practically strangers parin. At times napanghihinaan ako loob lalo pag sinasabi niyang aalis na sya or kaya magchecheck ako ng channel niya kung san nakikita rating sa kanya ng clients niya (pinopost niya agad yun after booking). But then kapag magkakausap na kami ng gabi parang nakakalimutan ko na lahat yun. Idk, sobrang wala akong maisip kung ano gagawin ko. She tells me na naredevelop narin feelings niya towards me, kusa siya nag uupdate, nangangamusta, naiinis pag di ako sumasagot etc etc. I feel good, but I really don’t know if this would work out. If I see it through, titigil ba siya “magwork”? Pano yung +1? And ni hindi ko pa nga alam real name niya, which she promised sasabihin niya lahat once ready na siya. Akong ulol naman naniwala. And one day we agreed magmeet for dinner.
And unsurprisingly, di na naman siya sumipot. Di nagreply, no chats. Then 10pm on the date, nagchat siya. Sorry daw kasi nakatulog siya. Pagkauwi super pagod. Gusto ko maniwala, I wanna trust her. Pero another mistake from me, nagcheck na naman ulit ako ng TG channel niya. Alam ko na makikita ko dun pero nakakalungkot parin. 10pm pinost niya review ng client niya that day. Fucking brutal. This was a Friday again. Now kinabukasan nagleave siya message saying sorry and next time, treat niya na to make it up to me. Sabi ko okay lang, nagtanong ako and I quote “Kamusta sleep mo?”, and just left it at that. I was bummed so di ko na finallow-upan yung last message ko. Nagreply siya, Monday na ulit. But one thing narealize ko, and it’s so sad…
I figured I’m still just a client to her. I don’t think we’re gonna move past that. Gets ko na bakit di siya nagrereply ng weekends. Kasi weekdays, always 10am, nagpopost siya na available siya for booking. And yun lang yung time na makakausap ko siya since actively naghahanap siya client. And she probably doesn’t bother herself about me. Na TG lang ang way para makapagreach out ako sa kanya. Sampal sa mukha pero feel ko that’s the truth. I still don’t know if genuine mga sinasabi niya sakin, na special raw ako sa kanya and she wants to see me too. Pero I gotta trust my instincts, araykupooo pero I gotta be logical. I wanted to make sure of something kaya I did what I think is right. I gotta stop na before falling too hard. Now, I asked for the last time. Na if pwede malaman ko real name niya, para masearch ko sa socmeds and baka pwede magmove on na kami from TG kasi ayaw ko na makita yung side niya na yun. As expected, di pa daw siya ready but matagal na rin nga kaming magkausap kaya prinomise niya na next time magkita kami, sasabihin niya lahat. Me, di yun yung gusto kong sagot. I wanted to know right there and then, ayaw ko na patagalin pa kasi baka mahulog pako lalo.
Sucks but that’s just how it is. Unti unti akong naging cold. Di na masyadong interested sa mga kwento niya. I was distancing myself very slowly. Hard for me too kasi I really like her but so far, I really don’t know her. Pero ayun, gotta let things go. Pero kaya slowly lang, kasi baka magbago pa isip niya, umaasa parin ako hahaha. Then until wala na, wala na yung feelings ko for her.
Then one day, naalala ko kay utang pa siya sakin hahaha nakakahiya maningil. But I became really blunt, nag ask ako if pwede ko na makuha. Nagulat siya nagchat ulit ako and was wondering what changed with me. I don’t think it will change things kaya di nako nagbother magexplain. Then, suddenly nakaisip ako ng napakastupid na idea. I asked her if pwede ko siya mabook and ibawas nalang yung 1k sa fee niya. Now I really thought na tatanggihan niya kasi feel ko may feelings rin siya sakin kaya nagulat ako ng umoo siya. Idk why I thought she’d refuse pero okay rin for me. Now I know this wouod never really work. I really wanted to see her and sabi niya she really wanted to see me too. I think this’ll be closure for me too. I felt relieved, I think she’s still a great girl but idk bat pinatagal ko pa to.
Shet ang haba naman hhahahah thanks for reading ulit and post ko last part soon. Yung last time nakausap and nakita ko siya. Pareact and comment nalang, salamat!
Continuing from part 2.
Yung plan namin ni Kish na magramen is Friday dapat, kinabukasan nanghiram siya money and nagpahiram ako kaso 1k lang. Sa isip isip ko baka ako lang to, baka inuulol ko lang rin sarili ko. Baka talagang magaling siya on making people feel good. Maybe tinatry niya lang ako perahan kasi alam niya gusto ko siya. And lalo nadagdagan worries ko kasi after niya manghiram, sabi niya ibabalik niya in 2 days. Then nagpromise siya na we can set another time para sa date namin. Umasa ko and that’s the last time nagreply siya sakin, not until Monday na. Nagtaka ko, sabi ko bat di man lang siya nagreply throughout the weekend. Valid naman, pagkabigay pero bigla dedma. Pero inexplain niya na tinatry niya lang magspend more time with her baby boy and di siya pala gamit ng phone (which alam ko namang kalokohan lang).
Anyways, the week went okay naman. Lagi kami magkausap throughout the day. Lagi rin siya lumalabas ng around 10am para “magwork”. Masama man pakinggan pero araw araw I pray na wala siyang makuhang client. Yes wala ko sa lugar na sabihan siya itigil yun pero what can I do? We’re practically strangers parin. At times napanghihinaan ako loob lalo pag sinasabi niyang aalis na sya or kaya magchecheck ako ng channel niya kung san nakikita rating sa kanya ng clients niya (pinopost niya agad yun after booking). But then kapag magkakausap na kami ng gabi parang nakakalimutan ko na lahat yun. Idk, sobrang wala akong maisip kung ano gagawin ko. She tells me na naredevelop narin feelings niya towards me, kusa siya nag uupdate, nangangamusta, naiinis pag di ako sumasagot etc etc. I feel good, but I really don’t know if this would work out. If I see it through, titigil ba siya “magwork”? Pano yung +1? And ni hindi ko pa nga alam real name niya, which she promised sasabihin niya lahat once ready na siya. Akong ulol naman naniwala. And one day we agreed magmeet for dinner.
And unsurprisingly, di na naman siya sumipot. Di nagreply, no chats. Then 10pm on the date, nagchat siya. Sorry daw kasi nakatulog siya. Pagkauwi super pagod. Gusto ko maniwala, I wanna trust her. Pero another mistake from me, nagcheck na naman ulit ako ng TG channel niya. Alam ko na makikita ko dun pero nakakalungkot parin. 10pm pinost niya review ng client niya that day. Fucking brutal. This was a Friday again. Now kinabukasan nagleave siya message saying sorry and next time, treat niya na to make it up to me. Sabi ko okay lang, nagtanong ako and I quote “Kamusta sleep mo?”, and just left it at that. I was bummed so di ko na finallow-upan yung last message ko. Nagreply siya, Monday na ulit. But one thing narealize ko, and it’s so sad…
I figured I’m still just a client to her. I don’t think we’re gonna move past that. Gets ko na bakit di siya nagrereply ng weekends. Kasi weekdays, always 10am, nagpopost siya na available siya for booking. And yun lang yung time na makakausap ko siya since actively naghahanap siya client. And she probably doesn’t bother herself about me. Na TG lang ang way para makapagreach out ako sa kanya. Sampal sa mukha pero feel ko that’s the truth. I still don’t know if genuine mga sinasabi niya sakin, na special raw ako sa kanya and she wants to see me too. Pero I gotta trust my instincts, araykupooo pero I gotta be logical. I wanted to make sure of something kaya I did what I think is right. I gotta stop na before falling too hard. Now, I asked for the last time. Na if pwede malaman ko real name niya, para masearch ko sa socmeds and baka pwede magmove on na kami from TG kasi ayaw ko na makita yung side niya na yun. As expected, di pa daw siya ready but matagal na rin nga kaming magkausap kaya prinomise niya na next time magkita kami, sasabihin niya lahat. Me, di yun yung gusto kong sagot. I wanted to know right there and then, ayaw ko na patagalin pa kasi baka mahulog pako lalo.
Sucks but that’s just how it is. Unti unti akong naging cold. Di na masyadong interested sa mga kwento niya. I was distancing myself very slowly. Hard for me too kasi I really like her but so far, I really don’t know her. Pero ayun, gotta let things go. Pero kaya slowly lang, kasi baka magbago pa isip niya, umaasa parin ako hahaha. Then until wala na, wala na yung feelings ko for her.
Then one day, naalala ko kay utang pa siya sakin hahaha nakakahiya maningil. But I became really blunt, nag ask ako if pwede ko na makuha. Nagulat siya nagchat ulit ako and was wondering what changed with me. I don’t think it will change things kaya di nako nagbother magexplain. Then, suddenly nakaisip ako ng napakastupid na idea. I asked her if pwede ko siya mabook and ibawas nalang yung 1k sa fee niya. Now I really thought na tatanggihan niya kasi feel ko may feelings rin siya sakin kaya nagulat ako ng umoo siya. Idk why I thought she’d refuse pero okay rin for me. Now I know this wouod never really work. I really wanted to see her and sabi niya she really wanted to see me too. I think this’ll be closure for me too. I felt relieved, I think she’s still a great girl but idk bat pinatagal ko pa to.
Shet ang haba naman hhahahah thanks for reading ulit and post ko last part soon. Yung last time nakausap and nakita ko siya. Pareact and comment nalang, salamat!